January 16, 2009 Transcript
"Tell Nadine How You Feel"

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Nikolas: I didn't know you were coming.

Alexis: Are you breaking up the pair?

Nikolas: Yes. So, what's inspired this visit? I know how much you hate taking the launch in winter.

Alexis: No kidding.

Nikolas: Storms coming in.

Alexis: It's almost as bad as chemo. Anyway, I talked to my friend Melissa. You know, the one who set up the senate subcommittee meeting for you.

Nikolas: Yeah.

Alexis: She said you and Nadine made a very impressive argument against Equinox.

Nikolas: Yes, well, Nadine deserves all the credit. She spoke from the heart and it worked.

Alexis: Was that before or after she licensed the patent over to you?

Nikolas: Oh, right. That's right. That was some impressive foresight on your part, anticipating that Nadine may become overwhelmed and giving me the means to step in.

Alexis: Yeah, yeah. Okay, well, I'm concerned -- curious, actually, that Equinox has not contacted you about the license. They're the largest, most secretive defense corporation in the country.

Nikolas: If they do ask me to re-license the patent, I'll just refuse.

Alexis: Nikolas, given their influence -- Equinox's influence, and your own personal troubles with I.N.S., you are putting yourself and your potential citizenship on rocky ground.

Nikolas: Nadine needed my help, so I did it.

Alexis: And, of course, if you continue to do these nice, big things for her, she won't even notice that you're not actually in love with her.

Nikolas: What do you want from me? Nadine's been wonderful. She's kind, she's sweet, she's funny. She was helpful in opening up the clinic.

Alexis: Kind of like a trusted assistant or a, you know, sister.

Nikolas: This is -- this is Cuthbert, by the way. Yeah. Emily named him. She used to say that this thing was just -- was just plain ugly. But, you know, of course, Emily being Emily, she felt bad about being so harsh, so she said that it was a "he," and that he needed a name, so, hence the name Cuthbert.

Alexis: Okay. You digress.

Nikolas: So? Look, I enjoy Nadine. I enjoy her company. I like listening to her stories.

Alexis: I'm just going to say that if she heard you say that, she'd be really, really humiliated.

Nikolas: What do you want me to say to that? She's brought laughter back into my life and I'm profoundly grateful for that.

Alexis: Well, then, the more gratitude you show her, the more she's going to think and hope that there's some sort of a future between the two of you. And -- and is there?

Nikolas: I don't know. I want to love her.

Alexis: Okay, that answers that question.

Nikolas: Look, it's Emily’s birthday, okay? Get off my back.

Alexis: I'm sorry.

Nikolas: That's all right.

Alexis: I forgot.

Nikolas: It's all right. It's just I'm having a difficult time focusing on anything else.

Nikolas: I realize that I can't live in the past. That would be weak and self-indulgent.

Alexis: No one would ever describe you as weak. Maybe a little self-indulgent, just --

Nikolas: No, no, it's both, weak and self-indulgent. I wallowed in grief for months after her death.

Alexis: I remember.

Nikolas: And Nadine, she's -- she's made me see that there at least could -- could be a life after Emily, you know. I want to move forward. I really do. But if I'm being honest with myself, Emily’s death has changed my life profoundly. I don't know if I could ever love like that again or if I even want to. I know she's in my heart right now and she always will be.

Alexis: For what it's worth, I think your capacity to find love with another Woman may be greater than you really think.

Nikolas: I really want to believe that.

Alexis: So apparently you need to give yourself some more time.

Nikolas: But it's -- come on, it's already been over a year. Until -- you know, even this day, I still have moments where -- see, like right now. I'm so completely overwhelmed by the sadness of losing her and I have to literally stop and catch my breath.

Alexis: I get it, I really do. And especially on her birthday.

Nikolas: Yeah. I'm just -- I'm trying to get the courage to go visit her grave today. You know, I'll -- I'll bring flowers, and I'll stare at her name engraved on the wall and then -- and then, bang, just like that, I'll get lost in the memories and -- I know I will.

Alexis: I really do understand how you feel. I'm just suggesting that you tell Nadine how you feel so you don't make her feel something or --

Nikolas: I know.

Alexis: That is not really true. You know what I mean?

Nadine: Hi, Ms. Davis. Hi, Nikolas. We are going to have the best afternoon.

Nadine: I got some cookies for Rubicon, made from rice, no alfalfa fillers.

Nikolas: Oh, he'll love those. Thank you.

Nadine: And then Spencer, I thought, would like these little baby duckies to go with the mama duck I got him last week. And I passed a little Greek bakery on the way over here, and I got those cookies that your cook makes for you. I couldn't resist. I hope she doesn't mind.

Nikolas: Oh, my gosh. Wow, thank you.

Alexis: Okay, I have to go, so I'm going to go.

Nadine: Will we see you later tonight at the Michael Corinthos benefit?

Alexis: Oh, I sure hope so. I have a court case that may take me a little late, so we'll see. Thank you, honey.

Nikolas: Yeah, you're welcome.

Alexis: You guys have a nice afternoon.

Nadine: Okay.

Nikolas: All right, thanks. Thanks for stopping by.