March 14, 2006 Transcript
"She is Hellbent on Proving that I'm a Bad Mother"

Sam: Ok, you were right. A walk really is helping me clear my head. I think I have plenty of time to decide what to do about Alexis, and you know what? We might all be better off if she never knows that she's my mother.

Jason: It would be a hard secret to live with. So if you have to tell her, I understand, but you need to warn me first because all hell is going to break loose.

Sam: Hey -- no, no, no -- she gave me up for adoption, she didn't want me then. Why should I invite her into my life now? It doesn't make any sense.

Kristina: I see the lights of the ferry!

Sam: Whoa -- hey, hey.

Whoa, come back here. Don't get too close to the water.

Kristina: That's what my mommy always tells me.

Alexis: Thank you for stopping her.

[Alexis sighs]

Sam: I hate you. I cannot believe you gave me up for adoption.

Alexis: Listen, thanks again for stopping her.

You -- over here, you little goofball. Don't go running off like that anymore, honey. You got to be more careful, ok?

Kristina: What's wrong?

Sam: I was just -- um -- thinking about my brother, Danny. He used to love the ferry boats, too.

Kristina: But you look so sad.

Sam: Well, my -- my brother Danny -- he's in heaven now. He's there with my little girl.

Alexis: You still want that apple pie?

Ric: Ahem.

Alexis: I do.

Ric: Hmm?

Alexis: Let's go get it.

Ric: Come on, sounds good to me.

Alexis: You guys, go on. I'll be right there.

Ric: No, I think it's a good idea if we go as a family.

Alexis: It's ok, I'll be right there.

Ric: Come on, here we go. Torpedo.

Alexis: She's just such a little girl. I don't think she can understand the pain that you feel.

Sam: Oh, she can't understand? What, were you afraid I was going to tell her my brother died because of you?

Alexis: I would certainly hope that you would never do something like that.

Sam: What about if I told her what a hypocrite you were? Would that be appropriate? How selfish you are?

Alexis: Please be careful what you say to my daughter. Thank you.

Sam: Enjoy your dessert at Kelly's. And I hope you know that one day your daughter will figure out what kind of mother she got stuck with. Because you are a hypocrite, and you are not any kind of a mother.

Jason: Sam -- Sam. You don't want to do this.

Alexis: Sam, you can hate me as much as you want, but I'm not going to apologize for protecting my daughter.

Sam: Protecting your daughter? She almost ran off the docks, Alexis.

Alexis: I -- I appreciate you stopping her, I really do, but I seriously doubt that she would've pushed herself --

Sam: Oh, you know, that's right -- no, no, no, I -- I totally forgot. You are the mother of the year. You are the perfect mother. Hail to Alexis Davis, the perfect mother.

Jason: Ok, come on, come on.

Sam: You want me to stay away from your daughter, the daughter that you love so much, remember my baby saved her. So, sure, Alexis, I'll stay away from her. Fine.

Sam: Just seeing Alexis with Kristina, I should've told her the truth.

Jason: Sam, just try to calm down.

Sam: No, I -- Jason, I hate the way she looks at me. She looks at me like I am nothing and that she is great!

Jason: I want to help you, I'm trying to support anything you decide --

Sam: No, you don't want me to say anything.

Jason: It's not up to me. If you need to tell Alexis that she's your mother, then that's what you need to do.

Sam: No, what I want is for Alexis to be someone else.

Alexis: Well, I survived -- barely.

Ric: Yeah? I'm sure that Jason and Sam weren't very receptive to whatever it was that you had to say.

Alexis: She hates me and it's getting more intense.

Ric: She's grieving.

Alexis: It's more than that. She can't get over the fact that my daughter lived and hers didn't. And she is hellbent on proving that I'm a bad mother.

Sam: When I realized that Evelyn wasn't my mother, I was relieved. She didn't like me, Jason, at all, and I didn't like her. So I started to imagine what my mother would be like, and even though I was afraid that I would find something awful, I -- I still hoped and prayed that I would find someone who actually loved me.

[Sam sighs]

Jason: I am sorry.

Sam: I created the perfect mother in my head. You know, a woman who loved me, who -- who fought really, really hard before she gave me up, and a woman who didn't want to give me up. Someone who actually maybe celebrates my birthday, maybe sits in the park and -- and just wonders. But Alexis? The woman I hate more than anyone in this entire world. Why does it have to be Alexis? It's not fair. Jason, it is -- it is not fair, because you know what? Kristina and Molly -- they get to have a great mom, and I don't.

Ric: Alexis, don't let Sam do this to you. This is why I didn't want you to go on the pier and get in a confrontation with her. She feels that you have hurt her in some personal and profound way, and she thinks you've done it intentionally.

Alexis: I screamed at her in the chapel. There's no apology that I can ever make that is going to make that any better for her.

Ric: Your daughter was dying, ok, you were desperate. I think you get a free pass on this one. Her child was stillborn, she had a preexisting medical condition -- she's not willing to accept that. She just wants to dump all that pain and all that grief and all that loss on you. It's easier for her.

Alexis: I accepted an antidote that, had her brother taken it, would still be alive today.

Ric: Dr. Drake made that decision for you.

Alexis: Other people refused it. Robin refused it. All I had to do was wait two seconds longer, and the rest of the antidote would've been there.

Ric: You don't know that!

Alexis: Why is Danny McCall's life less special than mine? Is it because he's disabled?

Ric: What are you --

Alexis: Is it because he doesn't have the privilege of having a family? It isn't fair, and it's never going to be fair, so nothing that I'm going to say is going to change that, so I'll stop talking.

Ric: That's right, because it doesn't get you anywhere, all right? Sam is not going to change the way she feels because she doesn't want to, Alexis. She's going to hold on to that. There's nothing you're going to be able to do to change the way Sam feels, and the more you try, the more you're going to hurt yourself.

Alexis: Said the pot to the kettle. Speaking of which, when was the last time you talked to Sonny?

Ric: Ok, I admit that I want a relationship with my brother, and I've done everything that I can to apologize to him for everything that I have done, but that's because he's family. You don't have that kind of connection with Sam, so you can just let it go.

Jason: If you tell Alexis, do you think you're going to feel better?

Sam: I'd like to see the look on her face.

Jason: Ok, what about after that?

Sam: You mean can she explain why she gave me up? Sure. I'm sure she can, because that's what she does best. I'm sure she'll blame it on somebody else -- that she gave away her firstborn child that she never came to look for.

Jason: You don't think she did?

Sam: Come on, Jason, let's be serious here. Alexis Davis is one of the smartest, more intelligent people that I have ever met. She's a lawyer, she has resources. She could've done the research. Yes, she could've found me if she wanted to.

Jason: Ok, you're right. But what you need to figure out is, do you need to tell Alexis all this stuff?

Sam: Will it make a difference? No. You know why? Because she'll say that she's sorry -- just like she said she was sorry when my daughter died and when Danny died. That's what you've been trying to tell me all along, isn't it?

Jason: I -- I don't like Alexis, so it's not really fair to ask me.

Sam: Jason, it is fair, because you are the only person who actually loves me and knows what I need. And I don't need this. I don't need Alexis, and I don't want her to know that she's my mother.

Ric: It's coming. It's coming. Isn't it?

Mike: Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh. Ah. Here you go.

Ric: Ah! Look at that!

Mike: There you go, here's a spoon.

Ric: Go ahead.

Alexis: Here, go ahead.

Ric: If you don't eat it, I will.

[Ric and Alexis chuckle]