March 3, 2006 Transcript
"May 11, 1980"

Jason: You didn't sleep much. You were having nightmares.

Sam: I don't have any pictures of me and Danny when we were kids. I just -- I wish I did.

Jason: It might help if you tell me what's going on.

Sam: I got the results of the D.N.A. test. And you were right. I'm adopted.

Ric: I'm just starting the paperwork to find your daughter. Unless you've changed your mind.

Alexis: I'm not sure that I want to see her or approach her, but I do want to find o what happened to her. And I'm praying that I find out that she's happy and has had a great life.

Ric: All right, you're going to need to provide me with as much information as possible, sweetheart. Obviously, I'm going to need to know the year, the date, the -- the place of birth, as well as the clinic that the baby was born in. Do you remember any of the staff's name, or did you sign any papers?

Alexis: I don't remember. I don’t. Mikkos sent lawyers to handle everything. That's all I remember.

Ric: Ok, what about the baby's father?

Alexis: I never told the baby's father that I was pregnant. I was scared. I was 16. I was ashamed. And obviously in complete denial. I figured that teenage girls go to boarding school and they gain weight, and that's what I was going to say in case anyone noticed, but no one did. No one really ever noticed me. I was always in the background studying. And that's what I did. I studied. I got As. And then one day I fainted in gym class. And then the nurse found out that I was pregnant and she called Mikkos, and of course you read that very emotional, concerned letter. And then I got sent to Chatham, Maine, to a clinic to have the baby.

Ric: That's a start.

Alexis: I sometimes thought I should just get on a bus and go to the city and get a job and have the baby on my own. Maybe that's what I should've done. God only knows where my life would be now.

Ric: Well, it's a cinch you wouldn't have gone to Yale. Definitely wouldn't have been in Port Charles.

Alexis: But I would have had a daughter who knows her mother.

Sam: Robin called with the D.N.A. test results last night.

Jason: I knew that you were upset and that you would tell me when you were ready.

Sam: No, I -- I don't even know what to think about this. Jason, my mind is just really going in circles. I just found out that my entire life is a lie and all the assumptions that I had made -- I always thought that my mother left with Danny because of me because that's what she told me. She told me that me and my father were two of a kind and she couldn't deal with both of us, and I believed her. I thought I inherited my ability to run a scam because of my father.

Jason: Well, you learned from him. That's almost the same thing.

Sam: I don't know who I am. Everything I thought was true about myself and my life was a lie. I don't know who my parents are; I don't know why my mother gave me up.

Jason: If it would help to have some answers, we can try to find your real mother.

Sam: Absolutely not. I just wish now I had waited for the D.N.A. test. Why did I have to be in such a hurry, Jason?

Jason: Sam, you needed to know.

Sam: On the day of my brother's memorial, I find out that he's not my biological brother?

Jason: Danny is always going to be your brother just like Emily is always going to be my sister, blood or not. Ok? Nothing can erase the love you felt for him or the way you looked after him. Now, if -- if you want to try to find your real mother, it's not going to mean that you love Danny any less.

Sam: I know, but this isn't just about Danny. Say I go digging around in my past -- Jason, I'm afraid of what I'm going to find. I don't know if I want to know who my mother is or who my parents were or why they gave me up.

Jason: Ok, well, you know what? You don't have to think about that today, all right?

Sam: Besides, what do we have to go on? I don't even know where I was born.

Jason: You know when.

Sam: If that's even true. For all I know, my parents lied to me about everything.

Jason: No, Sam, we can't assume that.

Sam: Ok, so what are we supposed to do? Look up every birth certificate of every girl born May 11, 1980? And I was supposedly born on Mother's Day.

Ric: You don't remember the name of the clinic?

Alexis: Vil-- Vilson, maybe Belmore. I can't --

Ric: You're sure it was in Chatham, Maine?

Alexis: Yes, I'm sure. I'm sure about that. I remember because I remember being in the car and we were passing all these New England villages, and then we passed a sign that said "Chatham, Maine" because that's right when the driver said, "This is it."

Ric: Ok, well, the driver -- do you remember anything about him? Did you remember what kind of car --?

Alexis: It was a car service. It was -- I don't remember.

Ric: Oh, boy. You were pretty removed from all of this.

Alexis: It was handled. I was handled. I was given instructions and I followed them.

Ric: I understand, ok. But the baby was born in the clinic and not in a local hospital?

Alexis: In the --

Ric: Right?

Alexis: Yes. It was a professional place, the staff -- there was doctors and nurses.

Ric: Ok, ok. Do you remember anything about the clinic in particular?

Alexis: It was not uncomfortable, I had a private room; the staff was nice.

Ric: Ok.

Alexis: I brought my homework. I sat there and I studied because I was expected to keep my grades up.

Ric: And you don't remember signing anything? I mean, a release form, Alexis, anything at all?

Alexis: I don’t. The only thing that I remember is the date was May 11, 1980, and I'll never forget that because I gave birth to my baby on Mother's Day.

Sam: Jason? Maybe this isn't fair, just you and me going to Danny’s gravesite. Maybe -- maybe I should call some other people. Maybe I should call Sonny or Carly, or I'm sure Michael would go. Maybe Monica would go out of respect for you. I -- I just feel like they might --

Jason: We can wait if you want. That's fine. We can make arrangements to fly in people from Danny’s group home, invite some people here. We can do whatever you want.

Sam: No, you know what? No, no, no, no. I'm being silly, I'm being silly. Nobody here in Port Charles really knew him, and they probably wouldn't want to go. And the last thing that Danny would ever want is a bunch of people standing over his grave mourning him.

Jason: Well, what about the people from the group home?

Sam: I called and they're having a service for him on the beach in Hawaii.

Jason: That's nice.

Sam: They understand what it means for Danny to be gone. I just don't think anybody here under-- understands that. I -- I don't know what to do.

Jason: Well, you need to say goodbye, you know, in whatever way that feels best to you.

Sam: That's just it. There isn't really a way that feels best because I don't want to say goodbye.

Alexis: There's a really nice tribute in here to Courtney. Did you see it?

Ric: Uh-huh.

Alexis: How sad. I'm going to call Nikolas.

Ric: Hey, do you remember the attorneys that handled all of Mikkos' U.S. business in 1980?

Alexis: You know what? Don't ever let me accuse you of not staying on task.

Ric: Alexis, I've seen what the pain of losing this child has cost you, and I want to do what I can to help you find the truth.

Alexis: Then I won't be the overprotective, deeply neurotic mother that I am today.

Ric: Let's not shoot too high.

Alexis: I have no idea who handled the Cassadine business, but it might be in family papers and we can check it out. We'll ask Nikolas, but of course --

Ric: Yeah.

Alexis: We shouldn't do it today.

Ric: No, I agree. Not today.

Alexis: Oh, God. I almost missed this. This is -- oh. Danny McCall right here -- look at that. It's so small, it's easy to miss. One family member, just one -- Sam. He's being buried at St. Joseph’s.

Ric: Alexis --

Alexis: It's a private ceremony.

Ric: You couldn't have done anything to save Danny McCall.

Alexis: That isn't true.

Ric: It was a doctor's decision to give you the serum and not him.

Alexis: And if I refused it?

Ric: And then you would've left two children motherless.

Alexis: So I chose not to. Did you see the way that she stared at me at the hospital?

Ric: She's grieving, Alexis.

Alexis: She'll never be able to accept an apology from me, and I don't blame her.

Ric: Alexis, she's angry, all right, and she's trying to focus on you instead of focusing on her own loss and pain.

Alexis: I understand that, I do. I understand that intellectually, but emotionally I just know how I felt when she looked right at me and said, "You owe me."

Ric: Ok. Listen to me. She had just lost her brother. She was feverish herself -- look. She's in the throes of grief right now. The best thing that you can do is to stay clear of her and allow her time to heal.

Alexis: Time isn't going to lessen the pain for her. It may not even lessen her anger. All I know is that no matter how grateful I am for what she did for my daughter, when she needed me to reciprocate and save her brother, I didn't do it.

Jason: Thank you so much.

Father Coates: You're welcome.

Sam: What you said; it really helped.

Father Coates: Good. I wish I had known Danny better.

Sam: You would have liked him a lot.

Father Coates: I'm sure I would have. I'll keep you and Danny in my prayers.

Sam: Thank you.

Father Coates: Jason.

Sam: You know, it's a good place for Danny out here. He's really close to my daughter. When he was dying, I told him to wait for her, that she would be there, waiting for him. Do you think they found each other?

Jason: I think whatever heaven is, I know it's beautiful, and I know Danny’s there, and he's happier than ever.

Sam: You always know the right thing to say. Can I have a couple minutes to myself?

Jason: I'll just be at the gate, ok?

Sam: Thank you.

Alexis: This is only going to take a second. I'm sure that the service is over and Sam’s left by now, so I just want to put some flowers on Danny’s grave.

Ric: Look, I appreciate that you want to offer your condolences and make peace with Danny, but at the risk of saying it again, you did nothing to hurt him, or Sam’s baby daughter, for that matter.

Alexis: Not in a legal sense, but on another level --

Ric: Alexis, you're guiltless in both of those deaths. And I'm going to keep hammering away at you until you let go of this guilt that you're carrying around with you.

Alexis: Thank you. I'll be right back.

Sam: Everything makes sense in heaven. Right? You aren't left out. Nobody makes you feel like a dummy. Everything that used to hurt you, and all the things that you couldn't do, I know you can do them now. I bet you're reading the newspaper cover to cover every morning. And the street signs. And all those menus. And you don't got to go by pictures anymore, do you? Nobody's going to look at you funny. Nobody's going to look at you with pity. You know what? Nobody's going to see you at all because you're going to be riding so fast on that motorcycle of yours. With the wind in your face. You're free. Danny, you're free. I should be happy for you. And I am. I am happy because you are in a better place now. I'm just being a little selfish. Because I miss you so much.

Alexis: Sam, I am so sorry. I thought that you would be gone by now. I just wanted to leave some flowers for your brother.

Sam: How dare you show your face here when you killed my brother.