February 24, 2006 Transcript
"I Had a Baby When I Was Very Young, a Little Girl"

Ric: We've lied to each other in the past before. Let's not do it now.

Sonny: If you don't make it, I will take care of your daughter as if she were my own.

Ric: Thank you.

Sonny: You listen to me, ok?

Ric: Yeah.

Sonny: You're going to be all right.

Kristina: What's that?

Alexis: You know what? I remembered that I forgot to cut a piece of Molly's hair when she was born. You know why I do that?

Kristina: Why?

Alexis: Well, I do it -- ahem -- because that's what mommies do when they want to remember -- that's a good girl. Thank you very much. When they want to remember they had babies forever and ever and ever. You know what? I did the same thing for you, and you know where I cut the hair from? It was a little curl growing right there in the back of your neck. I got it. That way, when I miss you when you run off to college and you leave me all alone, I can look at the little hair and remember what you were like. It turns out that mommy's just a sentimental fool.

Kristina: Yeah.

Alexis: Yeah.

Kristina: Who's the other baby?

Alexis: That's my hair.

Ric: Do you regret it?

Elizabeth: What?

Ric: Giving up your art for all this.

Elizabeth: My life took a different direction. I love nursing, even in times like this. I know I'm making a difference.

Ric: I never thought of life in those terms -- "making a difference."

Elizabeth: Well --

Ric: Never too late.

Elizabeth: Alexis should be here with you.

Ric: We've been through this, Elizabeth. I don't want Alexis to know about this. I want to keep it that way. Let her be with the children.

Viola: I'm going to give Molly her bath and put her down.

Alexis: How's Kristina?

Viola: She's asleep.

Alexis: Thanks, Viola.

Viola: Mm-hmm.

Young Alexis: I just want to hold my baby one last time.

Nurse: We advise against it. I'm sorry.

Young Alexis: But I only held her once.

Nurse: That's probably for the best.

Young Alexis: But my baby was a part of me and now it's -- it's just over and I don't have anything left to remember her by.

Nurse: I clipped a lock of the baby's hair. I thought you might like to keep it.

Alexis: I don't understand it. He was stable when I left.

Elizabeth: That's what he wanted you to think. Ric didn't want me to call you.

Alexis: I'm glad you did. Thank you, Elizabeth.

Alexis: You lied to me. You took the monitor off so that you would look like you were stable so I'd feel like it was safe enough to leave.

Ric: How are the girls?

Alexis: They want to know when you'll be home. What do you want me to tell them -- that you're giving up?

Ric: No, just tell them that I love them and I'm -- I'm thinking about them, too.

Alexis: Well, I love --

Ric: Tell them that I'm glad that their mother isn't here. You need to go home, Alexis.

Alexis: I'm not going home.

Ric: You need to be with them.

Alexis: I’m not going home because you are my husband and I need to be with you because I love you and I want to know why you don't want me here with you.

Ric: I prefer to not have you watch me die.

Alexis: You don't get to make choices for me.

Ric: I'd prefer to not let you have the image of watching me die. See, this is why I didn't want to tell you in the first place. Please, I don't want to pick a fight.

Alexis: You were there with me when I was in trouble.

Ric: Well, that was different.

Alexis: Really? How?

Ric: Well, because we were trapped and I had no choice. We couldn't go anywhere, and you -- you were giving birth to our child.

Alexis: That is absolutely ridiculous. That is a double standard. It's ok for me to need you, but when you need me, it's not. It's arbitrary and I'm not letting you get away with it.

Ric: I can't even leave this earth without winning one argument with you.

Alexis: Victory goes to the person that keeps trying. Keep trying, and maybe you'll get a rematch.

Ric: Please. I spoke to Sonny. I asked him to be a father to Molly, as well as to Kristina, and he agreed. I'm asking you, probably for the last time. I don't want Molly to feel like I -- I abandoned her, so let my brother take my place. Please, can you do that for me?

Alexis: No. I'm sorry, I can’t.

Alexis: No, I can’t. I'm not going to make this that comfortable for you.

Ric: How can you deny me that?

Alexis: I'm selfish, that's why. Because I know that if I give you what you want --

Ric: Why?

Alexis: Then you'll let go, and I can't do that. Because you're the one that keeps me sane, keeps me out of trouble, and you're the only one who knows how to use the waffle iron.

Ric: Sane, huh?

Alexis: It's a relative term.

Ric: Uh-huh.

Alexis: How am I supposed to go on without you?

Ric: You were doing just fine before me.

Alexis: I always do just fine. I always have done just fine. I never, ever knew that I could feel any better than just fine -- until I met you. And even then, I would try to push you away, but you wouldn't leave, because you wanted to prove to me that I could love someone and they wouldn't bolt. That I could totally be myself, and that you would love me anyway. Do you have any idea what a relief that is? To be able to feel safe enough to just say anything I want to you, to be as honest as I want to you about anything?

Ric: You're not -- you're not honest about everything. You guard -- guard something, Alexis. I don't know what it is. It's -- it's pain, maybe? Maybe it's fear or -- is it a loss? And I see it come out every now and then, it's -- especially with Molly and with Kristina.

Alexis: I don't know what you're talking --

Ric: What is it? What secret is worth keeping from me at a time like this?

Alexis: I want you to stop talking like you're going to die.

Ric: No, we all hope for some measure of love and hope and peace, trust in our lives and we've had at least two out of those, didn't we?

Alexis: Stop talking in the past tense, like you're not going to be around anymore.

Ric: Alexis, please. Just tell me if I'm right. Tell me if I know you that well.

Alexis: I lost someone a long time ago. I thought I had gotten over it, but I never quite managed.

Ric: Well, I know about your -- your sister, Kristina, and --

Alexis: You don't know about her, I didn't tell you about her.

Ric: Who?

Alexis: I had a baby when I was very young, a little girl.