February 12, 2003 Transcript
"Toxins"

Alexis arrives that the Quartermaine gatehouse where Cameron is sitting on the couch reading.

She walks in slowly. He hears her and turns around.

Cameron: Why don't you come in from the cold? I've always wanted to say that.

He gets up from the couch. Alexis remains in the open doorway.

Alexis: I've changed my mind. I think this is a bad idea.

Cameron: Why?

Alexis: (Timidly) Because if there's something wrong with me, I'm telling you that it's physical and they just haven't found it yet, and I don't really see how this is going to help.

Cameron: Alexis, close the door, I'm freezing.

She slowly closes the door. She pauses and looks into the room. She walks in front of bay window and takes in the room.

Alexis: I'm used to seeing this place filled with candles. My sister liked aromatherapy. I don't suppose you studied that in your psych class, did you?

Cameron: Was she happy?

Alexis: She was radiant. She was innately happy. Until I lied to her, which eventually killed her.

Cameron: You blame yourself for that?

Alexis: I don't want to be here. I want to go see my daughter. (She turns and heads for the door)

Cameron: Who will you be when you pick her up, Alexis? (She stops) Who will ultimately take your baby home?

Alexis: Why are you doing this?

Cameron: I want to speak with Kristina.


Alexis remains standing across the room from Cameron.

Cameron: Why weren't you and Kristina raised as sisters?

Alexis: It's too complicated.

Cameron: How'd you connect as adults?

Alexis: She found me.

Cameron begins to walk toward her.

Cameron: Did you ever spend any time together as children?

Alexis: No.

He stands behind her and removes her coat from her shoulders.

Cameron: Did you ever think about her, miss her? Wish you were with her?

Alexis: You really need to stop, Cameron. (She walks away from him)

Cameron: Am I getting too close?

Alexis: Do you honestly think just because you say something provocative to me that I'm just going to flip into Kristina? I can assure you that isn't going to happen.

Cameron: It's happened before. (He walks toward her)

Alexis: I would never have survived my childhood if I snapped every time someone said something upsetting to me.

Cameron: Tell me about your mother.

She pauses uncomfortably and then steadies herself.

Alexis: She was an opera singer.

Cameron: What happened to her?

Alexis: (Turns her head away) She loved me very much.

Cameron: How did she die, Alexis?

Alexis: My stepmother slit her throat.

Cameron: Who told you that?

Alexis: I was there. I saw.


Sonny sends Jason to give a message to Faith. He wants no more trouble from her at Carly's club or anywhere in Sonny's territory.


Alexis: I don't want to talk about my mother anymore.

Cameron: Why not?

Alexis: I just don't. (Cameron sits down) I'm not the only person who had a horrible childhood. (She sits on the couch)

Cameron: Well, most of us don't see our mothers murdered in cold blood. How old were you?

Alexis: Old enough to know that it had happened.

Cameron: Did Kristina see it?

Alexis: No. She was just a baby. I hid her because I was afraid that my stepmother would kill her, too. I hid her in a barn and I left her there alone. And then when I came back, she was gone.

Cameron: You probably saved her life.

Alexis: I didn't know what to do.

Cameron: Do you feel guilty about that?

Alexis: (She fidgets and doesn't look at Cameron) I gave up on her. My sister never gave up on me. She wanted to find me and she did, and that cost her her life.

Cameron: How did she find out the truth about your baby's father?

Alexis: I was careless.

Cameron: You told her?

Alexis: No. I wrote her a letter. I wrote it down in a letter and I never sent it. You know, I always tell my clients don't write anything down, but I did. And she found it and confronted me, and she gave me the opportunity to tell her the truth, but I didn't. I kept lying.

Cameron: Did she know anything about Alcazar?

Alexis: (She turns her head away) Of course not.

We hear the gentle jingle of chimes. Alexis pauses and her uncomfortable demeanor changes to a more confident one. She notices a candelabra sitting on the credenza behind the couch.

Alexis: (As Kristina) Who put that there? That doesn't belong there.

She reaches over the couch and grabs the candelabra.

Alexis: That completely destroys the energy of the room. It's just wrong.

She takes the candelabra to the fireplace mantel. Cameron watches her curiously.

Cameron: Kristina?


Alexis rearranges some vases on the mantel.

Alexis: (As Kristina) My sister doesn't need therapy. She needs meditation. You're wasting your time.

She carries a vase around the room looking for a place to put it.

Cameron: I might be able to help her.

Alexis: She doesn't need your help. She's got me.

Cameron: You help Alexis?

She removes her purse from the credenza and places the vase there.

Alexis: Of course I help. She's my sister.

Cameron: (Standing up) Exactly, how do you help her?

Alexis: I help her by (waves her arms) cleansing the energy in the room -- and clearly this room needs a lot of work -- and then I help to remove the toxins.

Cameron: "Toxins"?

Alexis: Toxins -- things that poison her life. (Raises her finger in the air) Toxins can be people, too, you know.

Cameron: Am I a toxin?

Alexis: You're getting there.

Cameron: What would you do if I were?

Alexis: A toxin?

Cameron: Mm-hmm.

Alexis: (Walks back to the credenza and fusses with the vase) If you were a toxin, I would -- I would filter you out.

Cameron: Have you filtered anyone out lately?

Alexis: As a matter of fact, I have.

Cameron: Was his name Alcazar?


Cameron: Tell me what happened with Alcazar.

She walks toward the fireplace holding her neck as if stressed.

Alexis: (As Kristina) He made her go into labor early and he left her in the snow to die.

Cameron: That's pretty toxic.

Alexis: I thought so.

Cameron: And did you filter him out? Did you kill Luis Alcazar? Kristina?

Alexis pauses and then seems to snap out of it. She spins around.

Alexis: (As herself) Just because you call Kristina's name doesn't mean that I'm going to flip into her. I told you that.

Cameron: Actually, I just spoke with her.

Alexis: I highly doubt it.

Cameron: We had a substantial conversation.

Alexis: (Smart alecky) Did you? What did she say?

[Next scene]

Cameron: Sometimes, children develop alternate personalities as a way of dealing with abuse. The alternate deals with the abuser while the child remains confused but safe from reality.

Alexis: I'm not a child. (She walks away from the fireplace)

Cameron: Yes, but when Alcazar abandoned you in the snow, you desperately needed help. What if that evoked images from your childhood, like the moment your mother was murdered?

Alexis: Why would it do that?

Cameron: Because the emotions are the same -- panic, helplessness, rage, terror.

Alexis: Is that why you brought me here, because you wanted me to remember my precious mother and my precious sister and how I failed them? Is this you're way of helping me?

Cameron: Alexis, try to stay calm.

Alexis: I want you to get out. I want you to leave right now. In fact, you have three seconds, Cameron. I mean it.

Cameron: I'm not finished here.

Alexis: Get out!

He picks up his coat from the chair.

He walks toward the door and Alexis is very upset. She doesn't look at him.

Cameron: I'll be in touch.

He walks out and Alexis board her head about to cry.

Again we hear the gentle chimes.

Alexis lifts her head up confidently, takes in a deep breath and shakes off her sadness.