Sonny
and Carly were back together thanks to her ‘return from the
dead’. She wanted to cry about it, but deep down she knew that
it was for the best. She didn’t want Sonny suffering because
of her, which was what he would do if he knew that a few days ago
she’d found a lump in her left breast. She’d been to see
Monica because she’d been through it too – but the very
unique thing about Alexis’ situation was that not only had
she discovered a lump but she’d also just recently found out
that she was pregnant.
Monica had tried her best to calm her down, but Alexis had a bad
feeling about it. Monica had then proceeded to order a biopsy for
Alexis to determine whether this lump was benign or malignant. A
few days ago when Sonny had come by with a contract for Alexis to
review, and had questioned her condition she’d been so close
to telling him the truth, but she couldn’t.
*** FLASHBACK ***
Alexis: “You cannot just walk into my apartment like you
own it, which technically you do…But the point is I have a
life and you aren't always in it.”
Sonny: “I want to help.”
Alexis: “Then back off.”
Sonny: “Are you in some kind of trouble?”
Alexis: “No, I'm not in any…And if I were, I would be
perfectly capable of handling it.”
Sonny: “No question about it, you're one of the strongest people
I know. That's why, you know, I'm concerned. Because whatever this
is it has got to be serious, whatever's bothering you?”
Alexis: “And I can handle it.”
Sonny: “You don't have to deal with this alone.”
Alexis: “I'm not dealing with it alone. I'm just not choosing
to deal with it with you.”
Sonny: “Oh, so you're getting help, then?”
Alexis: “Stop worrying about me.”
Sonny: “OK, I'm going to make you some coffee. It'll make you
feel a lot better…”
Alexis: “I don't want any coffee.”
Sonny: “What do you mean?”
Alexis: “I don't…I don't even want a heart-to-heart. I
just want you to understand that I want you to go.”
Sonny: “I care about you…”
Alexis: “I know you do, and you can't just drop in here anytime
you want, day or night. I have a lot of work I have to do right
now.”
Sonny: “Do you want me to leave?”
Alexis: “Yes!”
Sonny: “Give you a little room; get the hell out of here?”
Alexis: “Please.”
Sonny: “OK, you're going to tell me what the problem is.”
*** FLASHBACK ***
Alexis: “The first thing I need to do is to find a new apartment
because if Sonny finds out he’ll insist on taking care of me,
and I won’t let him sacrifice his own life for mine…”
She said silently burying herself in her work once again knowing
that only that could make her forget this awful position she’d
been put in.
Kristina: “I don’t believe that hateful cow!” She
exclaimed barging through the door of PH2.
Alexis: “Hey…Now what?” She asked getting up from
her desk knowing that Kristina wouldn’t rest until she’d
told her sister all about this person, who’d obviously picked
the wrong day to meet her sister.
Kristina: “I get off the elevator, and who do you think I find
smooching outside their apartment?”
Alexis: “A guess? Sonny & Carly?”
Kristina: “Right! I mean…Doesn’t that man have any
self-respect? And Carly? For someone, who’s just survived a
near-fatal accident she seems pretty together if you ask me!”
Alexis: “Kristina…I’m kind of busy, and I’m
really not that interested in what Sonny & Carly are doing!”
She exclaimed moving her papers from the desk, and to the coffee
table where she sat down on the couch, and put her glasses back
on.
Kristina: “I’m sorry…I know that you’re doing
everything so that you can forget about Sonny but to see them out
there with no respect to others. I mean…Carly has never had
any respect for herself or others – but Sonny…After everything
you’ve done for him? Housing his sister? Taking care of his
coffee business? Being on call 24/7? How dare he?”
Alexis: “Kristina…” She sighed wanting to get some
work done.
Kristina: “I’m sorry…You’re right! I should
just ignore them.”
Alexis: “Thank you…”
Kristina: “What’s this?” She asked picking up a pamphlet,
which was lying on the livingroom floor.
Alexis: “That’s mine…” She replied getting up
fast, as she knew that if Kristina read anything in there she’d
know what Alexis was trying to hide from everyone.
Kristina: “’Cancer and Pregnancy?’ Alexis? Please
tell me that this isn’t doing what I think it’s doing
here?”
Alexis: “That’s private…” She replied snatching
it out of Kristina’s hands.
Kristina: “Do you have cancer? Does Sonny know?”
Alexis: “No – Sonny doesn’t know, and I don’t
know either…Come here…” She replied, as she led Kristina
to the couch where they sat down.
Kristina: “Just tell me the truth Alexis…”
Alexis: “I discovered a lump in my breast a few days ago, and
I’ve been to ‘General Hospital’ where I’m scheduled
to have a biopsy done in a few days time. I need you to keep this
quiet…”
Kristina: “You will tell Sonny if it turns out that…?”
Alexis: “I don’t want Sonny involved no matter the outcome
of the biopsy!”
Kristina: “Come again?”
Alexis: “He’s got enough on his mind with Carly’s
return, and their upcoming wedding…Besides…Sonny doesn’t
care about me in that way – he never has.”
Kristina: “So what was that night about then?”
Alexis: “Loneliness! Yes: we were both feeling lonely. Ned
was with you, and Carly was with Zander, and we wanted to be with
someone, and we just so happened to be together.”
Kristina: “I don’t believe that for a second! You’ve
been in love with Sonny for over a year now – you guys are
meant to be!”
Alexis: “Try telling Carly that!” She giggled wanting
to give the impression that she didn’t care about Sonny in
a romantic way.
Kristina: “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Alexis: “Nothing…” She sighed walking to the fireplace.
Kristina: “What do you mean ‘nothing’? You’re
pregnant with Sonny’s baby and you might have cancer!”
Alexis: “That’s exactly why I can’t tell Sonny the
truth! If he found out that I was pregnant with his child he’d
drop everything to take care of me.”
Kristina: “And the problem would be? Carly would be out of
the picture…”
Alexis: “Kristina! Sonny would only be doing this out of pity.
It would have absolutely nothing to do with love.”
Kristina: “Sonny would take care of you because he does care
about you…And no matter what you say he DOES love you!”
Alexis: “No he doesn’t! If he loves me then why the hell
did he get back together with Carly the second she came back from
the death?”
Kristina: “You actually believe that he did it out of love?
He did it out of guilt Alexis! He blamed himself for the accident,
and he needed to make amends but he chose the wrong way to go about
it.”
Alexis: “Stop it Kristina!”
Kristina: “No! I’m going to make you realize that Sonny
went back to Carly out of pity! He’s scared to commit to a
genuine, beautiful, caring woman. He’s bound to Carly out of
guilt, and because she’s the mother of Michael but if you tell
him that…”
Alexis: “No! Get this through your head Kristina: Sonny will
never know that this baby is his – not from me, and certainly
NOT from you! Got it?”
Kristina: “But…”
Alexis: “No buts! Now…Why don’t you head on over
to the Gatehouse to be with Ned? I need to be alone to think.”
Kristina: “No, I’m not about to leave you alone…”
Alexis: “Goodbye Kristina…” She sighed, as Kristina
got up from the couch.
Kristina: “Fine…But I’ll see you at ‘Kelly’s’
tomorrow, right?”
Alexis: “Yeah…Jax is taking me.”
Kristina: “Good…Bye!” She exclaimed exiting PH2.
Alexis walked to the desk where she took her purse, and carried
it to the couch, which she sat down on before opening her purse
and retreating a very old journal that had once belonged to her
mother.
Alexis: “God mom! How can this be happening to two generations
of women? You were together with Mikkos Cassadine, and discovered
the cancer after Kristina was born, and I discover I have cancer
and am pregnant a few weeks after my passionate encounter with the
local mob boss!” She sighed, as she opened the journal to the
last page where the last thing Alexis’ mother had thought of
was written down.
Dear Diary,
My daughters; Natasha and Kristina are getting more and more beautiful
for each day that passes, and I don’t know if I can keep this
secret from them any longer. It’s only a matter of time before
Helena makes her move, and I know that if she knew of my illness
she’d just hide my medication from me, and watch me suffer.
I know that somewhere in Mikkos there’s a place for me, Natasha
and Kristina but I can’t wait for him to see it.
When I’m alone with Mikkos he’s a completely different
man – then he’s the man I made love to, and created two
beautiful daughters with. Natasha is so much like her father. She
protects me whenever Helena comes by to give me the latest threat,
but she’s also very much frightened that something bad is about
to happen. I think that somewhere deep down in my little girl’s
soul she knows that I’m about to die. Dear God: what will I
do when I’ll be forced to leave this place without my two beautiful
and innocent girls?
I
know that Natasha will always protect Kristina – but who will
protect Natasha? If I knew that I could go to my grave without wondering
how my strong and brave little girl will ever survive in the world
of Helena Cassadine. Please give Natasha the strength to stand up
to Helena, because if she doesn’t have that strength then she
won’t survive this battle – for her life.
Alexis knew what had happened after her mother had written this.
Helena had entered the room, and had killed the woman, whose journal
this was – right in front of her daughter. In so many ways
Alexis and her mother were alike but there was one difference between
them. Alexis wasn’t about to tell the father of her baby about
its existence – it would wreck not only the baby’s life
but Sonny’s life too.
Alexis: “It’s not like you’ll never have any family
around you Little One…You’ll have Nikolas, Kristina, Jax,
Ned – you’ll have people around you, who understand how
to live an honest life. Your father can never know of your existence.
He just can’t – besides…The two of us will be just
fine as long as we have each other to lean on…” She replied
rubbing her stomach before placing the journal on the coffee table,
and leaning her back against the couch, while closing her eyes thinking
of how everything would be OK as long as they had faith in the fact
that together they could conquer everything.
