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Beginning
by Lidia
A/N: My take on how the SamLexis scene
at courthouse in April 2006 should have played out.
"Maybe
loss is more of a common ground than you originally thought,"
Alexis said sadly to Sam before opening the door to leave.
"Wait!"
Sam blurted out.
"Sam,
it's late, you're not stuck here with me anymore, and I'd think
you'd want to leave."
"This
won't take long." Sam took a pause, not really knowing what
told say next. Was she really doing this? Was she going to trust
that Alexis meant what she said just now? That she was sorry? That
she thought about her daughter all the time? That she loved her
little girl? Sam had to know.
"I
was given up for adoption as a baby."
That's
good, she thought, subtle but a way into the subject
Alexis
looked at her in shock. Out of the few years she'd known her, she
had no idea that Sam was adopted. All of a sudden, she felt very
uncomfortable. "I'm sorry, I had no idea."
"Me
neither, until after Danny died. They ran a DNA test, and that's
when I found out."
"That
must have been very difficult for you. Your parents never told you?"
she asked, now curious to learn about Sam's experience.
"I
had no idea. They never gave any hints or anything."
"Can
I ask you something?"
Sam
nodded.
"Do
you resent your birth mom for giving you up?"
Sam
stared at her for a few moments, not sure of how to go about answering
the question. "I did, for a while, after I found out, but I
think I understand now why she did it. It was probably the only
solution she had at the time. I forgave her."
Alexis
nodded at her response, and thought about her own daughter. Had
she still been alive, would she have come to the same conclusion?
"Thank
you for sharing that with me. Oddly enough, it makes me feel a little
better. I'm going to go now, it's late, I have a long day in court
tomorrow, but maybe we can talk about this some more another time."
"Okay."
"I'll
see you around," Alexis said, smiling at Sam, as she opened
the door to leave for the second time that night.
Sam
was panicking. If she didn't get this over with now, she more than
likely would leave things unsaid for days, if not weeks to come.
But Alexis really seemed to want to get out of that room; perhaps
just sharing their experiences was enough for one night.
"I
was born May 11th, 1980," Sam said in a shaky voice.
Alexis
turned around, dumbfounded. "What did you say?" Tears
were quickly forming in her eyes.
"I
was born May 11th, 1980," Sam repeated. Alexis stared at her,
and she went on. "I was born at the Belmont Clinic in Chatham,
Maine."
Alexis
didn't know what to think. This was Sam McCall after all, and she'd
hated Alexis for years; she wouldn't put it past her to lie about
something like this.
"Wow,
this is low, even for you Sam. I know you blame me for all that's
wrong in your life, and I'm sorry you feel that way, but using something
this personal against me, did you have a P.I. dig up some dirt on
me so you could use it to get back at me? And now that I'd already
told you the truth you figured you had to use what little you had
left?" Alexis was outraged, and had to mentally refrain herself
from slapping the girl standing in front of her.
"No,
I'm not lying. I know it's hard to believe, right? Sam McCall telling
the truth, but I am," she said, pleading to Alexis to believe
her. "When I found out I was adopted, I started looking for
my birth mom, and it led me to the clinic in Maine. The guy there
gave me the last known address for what he believed was my mom.
I showed up at this woman's door, and turned out she'd had a boy,
but on the same day. She did remember another girl there that day,
and she was wearing her school uniform from Briarton-Griggs Academy."
Alexis
sat back down, staring at Sam in disbelief as she continued her
story.
"She
didn't have her name or any other information though, so we went
to the school to see if they had the girl in question on record.
We found a yearbook from 1980, and one of the sophomores had no
picture in the yearbook. Her name was Alexandra Davidovich. Jason
recognized the name right away, but I didn't make the connection."
Alexis
was still staring at her, tears falling down her cheeks.
"Alexis,
your daughter didn't die in a car accident." Sam paused. "I'm
your daughter," she said, waiting for a reaction from Alexis.
She couldn't read whether Alexis believed her or was just remembering
that part of her life. "We can take a DNA test if you want,
but I wouldn't lie about something like this."
Alexis
stood up to face Sam, walking closer to her, oblivious to the last
comment her daughter had made. "You're my daughter?"
Sam
nodded, her own eyes starting to well up. Alexis inched closer,
observing her features, brushing a strand of hair away from her
face, before pulling her into a hug. Both women cried, as a weight
lifted from their shoulders.
Sam
was realizing just how much she needed her mom in her life, grown
up or not, and she was quickly understanding that everything she'd
reproached Alexis about her dedication to her daughters was pure
jealousy.
Alexis
pulled away from Sam, still looking at her intently. "Sam,
I ... I don't know what to say to you."
"I
understand ... I've never been your favorite person."
"No,
that's not what I meant. I'm just trying to grasp this, that's all."
Alexis'
mind was racing. Her father had betrayed her once again, even from
the grave. Her dead daughter wasn't dead after all; she was standing
one foot away from her. One foot away from the little girl Alexis
thought about every single day, wondering what she had become. She
now knew. It was Sam. Would she be able to have a relationship with
her? Their past relationship had been nothing but hurt and anger,
but she was just hoping this revelation would be enough to get them
past it.
"You're
my daughter, I can't believe it. All this time, everything that's
happened between us, I just, I can't believe it. How come I didn't
realize it sooner or recognize you ..." She took a long pause,
not sure what to think; what to say. "What happens now?"
"Alexis,
what I said before, about me understanding the reasons why, I meant
it. I've done a lot of thinking about whether I should tell you
or not since I figured it out and I honestly wasn't going to, because
of our past history. I wouldn't have told you tonight if I thought
nothing would come of this. I want to try to forget about everything
that's happened between us in the past and build some sort of normal
relationship."
Sam
found herself surprised by her own words, but that was what she
wanted. She never could have guessed, even a day ago, that she would
say that to Alexis, but listening to her and seeing the pain in
her eyes as she talked about her dead daughter, and the dedication
she felt for her, made her see how wrong her conclusions about her
mother had been.
"You
should go, it's really late now," Sam said, needing some time
to think, and deciding it was best to end the night there.
"Oh,
okay." Alexis felt a pang of disappointment: there was so much
she wanted to know, and so much to say to Sam.
"We
could have dinner sometime if you want, you know, to talk. It would
give both of us some time to get used to this," Sam offered.
"That
sounds wonderful. You can come over; Kristina will be delighted
to see you."
"Good."
"Sam
... thank you for telling me. And forgiving me. You will never know
how much this means to me. And I know I don't have the right to
ask anything of you, but please give me a chance to be your mother,"
she said, as her eyes filled with tears once again.
Sam
walked up to her and hugged her once more, before watching her mother
grab her coat, glasses, and briefcase and leave the room that had
allowed for a new beginning.
The
End.
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