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Losing
Balance
by Lionel
chapter
47
"Lorenzo."
Alexis shook her head and gave a small, indecipherable laugh as
she leafed through the dossier in her hands. "Of course. I
should have known."
John
Schaeffer sat behind his grey steel desk, flipping through a pile
of folders with little purpose other than to avoid meeting her eyes.
"You're familiar with Lorenzo Alcazar?"
Alexis
tossed the dossier on her mysterious new client on the desk and
leaned back in her chair. For the last hour John had been briefing
her on the assignment that had brought her to D.C., sketching out
the skeletal details of the man she would be representing: a "valuable
asset" who "moved product" in "close consultation"
with the U.S. government and who needed to renegotiate the terms
of his engagement. Once she formally accepted the assignment and
the necessary security clearance was in place, John had handed her
the dossier providing the full details on her client's identity.
Even
as she reached across the desk to take the dossier, Alexis recognized
the plain blue cover, and though it could have contained anything,
she knew as she turned the page that it would be Lorenzo's face,
with long hair and beard, staring back at her. Still, her heart
skipped when she saw the familiar photograph. She stared at it just
a moment, his heat trickling through her like hot water filling
a radiator, and then she closed the cover again. She didn't need
to read the dossier; she had already studied every word.
"You
know I am, John. What's going on here?"
John
shrugged, and in that moment he looked every bit the recalcitrant
bureaucrat he liked to play at being - middling grey suit, balding
pate, soft middle, unfashionable wire rims. He was as smart in his
way as anyone Alexis knew, but despite his Harvard Law degree and
old Washington money, he had a gift for seeming ordinary, and it
served him well in the delicate, high stakes game played in his
corner of the State Department. "Just what I've told you, Alexis."
"Why
would you ask me down here to represent Lorenzo Alcazar? You must
know about his brother."
"I
do. Is that a problem for you?"
"It
would be reasonable to assume so, wouldn't it? Obviously you know
otherwise, John. Did Lorenzo ask you to get me down here?"
"Not
exactly."
"What
exactly, then? Explain this to me now or I'm going to walk out that
door and go home to my daughter. I don't like being manipulated."
John
held up his hand in a gesture of peace. "No one's trying to
manipulate you, Alexis. I promise. Everything I've said is true.
Why don't we go talk to your client? He's in the conference room
down the hall."
*****
Though
her pulse pounded in her ears and her stomach fluttered with some
vague nervous excitement at seeing Lorenzo so out of context and
unexpectedly, Alexis barely nodded at him when she and John walked
into the conference room. Instead she stood just inside the door
with her hands on her hips, fending off the impulse to rush to him
by focusing on her anger, ready to flee if she didn't get a satisfactory
explanation.
"Why
am I here?" she asked Lorenzo tersely.
Lorenzo
had risen from the table quickly when Alexis came in the room, his
own heart beating hard in anticipation of her reaction, but now
he was held awkwardly in place by her forbidding manner. He wanted
to hug her or kiss her or take her hand, or just tell her how ridiculously
happy he was to see her, but he didn't dare. "John," he
said. "Could you please give us a moment alone?"
John
looked to Alexis for her consent, and she nodded tightly and stepped
out of his way. Once John was gone, Lorenzo took light hold of Alexis's
bent arm and tried to guide her toward a seat at the table, but
she pulled her arm back and shook her head in refusal.
"Why
am I here?" she asked again.
Giving
up, Lorenzo let his hands fall to his side. "I didn't lure
you down here to try to get you in bed, if that's what you're thinking."
"But
you did lure me down here?"
"Not
exactly."
"God,
that's an annoying answer, Lorenzo. Tell me what's going on now."
Lorenzo
hesitated a moment, battling his own inappropriate reaction to her
anger. The armor of her business suit couldn't contain the edgy
energy that radiated through her body, accentuating everything lithe
and feminine and impassioned about her movements. Though her eyes
flashed at him with impatience and accusation, and her posture said
'stay back', Lorenzo was quite sure he'd never found anyone more
alluring. A substantial part of him wanted to wrap her in his arms
and make her energy his, or even just stand there watching her all
day, but there was a delicate path to navigate first. He tightened
his hands at his sides, fending off the challenge to his self-control,
and nodded his assent.
"I
will. Please, let's sit down." Lorenzo pulled out a chair and
motioned for her to take it. Alexis paused a moment and then stepped
forward and sat, keeping a wary eye on him as he settled into the
chair next to her and swiveled to face her. "Can I get you
anything?" he asked, gesturing toward a tray at the other end
of the table that held a pot of coffee and a pitcher of ice water.
She
shook her head and folded her arms across her chest. "Talk."
"Okay."
Lorenzo clasped his hands together on the table in front of him,
took a breath and began. "When you told me that Jax obtained
the government dossier on me from an old law school classmate of
yours, I put two and two together and figured out that it came from
John Schaeffer. I know John fairly well; we've worked together for
several years."
Alexis
pressed her thumb and forefinger to the pressure points on her cheekbones
just below her eyes and drew them together, ending at the bridge
of her nose. Whatever relaxation she had achieved with her self-indulgent
bathing ritual and sound night's sleep had been draining away since
she'd walked into the building at 8:30 that morning. "Small
world," she muttered.
"Yeah."
"So
this is what you meant that night at Luke's when you said that the
government doesn't consider you a criminal."
"More
or less."
"Go
on."
"Okay.
I gave John a hard time about giving Jax that dossier. He thought
Jax just needed it for business; he didn't know it was really for
you. Not that it would have mattered if he did; that dossier is
the official version of me. I told John I wanted to tell you the
rest, but he reminded me quite firmly that it wouldn't be permitted."
"Unless
I was cleared as your lawyer."
Lorenzo
nodded. "Yes. John suggested that he could ask you to represent
me, and I thought it made sense. Now I can tell you everything."
"So
when I called you yesterday and told you I had to go out of town,
and you so kindly offered up your plane and made my travel arrangements,
you knew I was really coming to see you?"
"Yes.
I know you feel manipulated, but there wasn't any other way for
me to tell you the whole story."
She
squinted. The tension seemed to be moving up through her orbital
sockets to the top of her head. "And that's why I'm here? I
left Kristina and Jax and came down here so that you can tell me
more about your business and show me that you're not really as bad
a guy as I think because, hey, the U.S. government gives you its
stamp of approval?"
"No,
it's more than that. I really do need you to be my lawyer, Alexis.
I'm renegotiating my entire arrangement with the government. I can
set new limits, make demands, get out entirely. I'm at a point where
I can decide what comes next for me, and I want you to help me do
that."
She
opened her mouth but no words came out. She tried again. "It's
not my decision to make, Lorenzo."
Lorenzo
nodded slightly. "You're right; it's mine. But the considerations
that are most important to me affect you. I want to be someone you'll
allow in your life, Alexis. You know this. I want to make whatever
changes to my business are necessary to make that possible. But
I also need to make sure I remain in a position to keep the people
I care about safe, and that includes protecting you and Kristina
from Helena and Sonny and whatever else. I don't know how to do
both of those things, and I was hoping you would help me find a
balance we can both live with."
She
closed her eyes and rolled her neck around once. "That's a
neat trick."
"What
trick?"
"Making
your problem mine. Enlisting me to solve my own riddle. Asking me
to articulate exactly what I find objectionable about your business
and daring me to find a better solution than the one you've adopted.
You can't lose."
"I'm
not trying to be clever or underhanded here, Alexis. I just want
to fix this, and I need your help. I'm asking you to work with me
to find a way for us to give it a try."
She
opened her eyes again and looked at him. No matter what she did,
it seemed he was always there, pushing her gently, waiting for her
to wake up and join him on this path he thought was the most natural
in the world. When she looked into his calm blue eyes, it didn't
seem entirely crazy to her. "You're asking a lot, Lorenzo,"
she observed, her tone perfectly non-committal. "I'm not ready
to throw in with you; I'm not ready to make that kind of commitment."
"I
know you're not. I'm just asking you to preserve the possibility.
If I'm going to make changes, now is the time when it has to be
done."
She
raised her eyebrows and shook her head. "This is a lousy time
for me, Lorenzo."
"I
know. I know you have things to work through with Jax. I'm not trying
to pressure you, Alexis. If you need to walk out that door and go
home, I'll understand. I'll hate it, but I'll understand. I had
to ask."
Alexis
stood up and walked to the window that occupied one wall of the
conference room. She pulled back the drape and looked down at the
courtyard several floors below. The crisscrossing pathways were
lined with blossoming trees she couldn't identify at this distance,
but the effect was that of an orderly explosion of pink and white
and green. Washington was indeed beautiful at this time of year.
Finally, she shook her head. "I don't need to go home just
yet."
"You
don't?"
"Jax
and I have worked things through as well as we can. We've reached
an impasse."
"What
sort of impasse?"
Alexis
gave a short, humorless laugh. Maybe it wasn't quite funny, but
certainly the situation was ironic. Jax had insisted that she needed
to explore her feelings for Lorenzo, and she had been so determined
to prove him wrong, to prove that she could stay away from Lorenzo,
and yet here she was. "A waiting game of sorts. The details
are a private matter."
"Of
course. I'm sorry."
She
turned away from the window and walked to the other end of the table
and began to pour herself a cup of coffee. "Oddly enough, I
think Jax would tell me to stay. I know I wouldn't be doing him
any favors by going home now. I came down here in part to clear
my head and figure out what to do next, and I haven't done that
yet." She stirred her coffee around and around, long after
the swirls of white in brown had dissolved into a smooth ochre.
"Obviously, neither one of us knew that the tensions of home
were going to follow me down, but maybe this is for the best."
"You'll
stay then?"
Alexis
looked up from her coffee, pursed her lips, and nodded. "Yes."
She walked back to her chair and sat down.
"And
you'll help me try to find a business solution that you can live
with? We'll see if we can find a way to knock down this last wall?"
"I
will help you preserve the possibility for some future time. No
promises, though."
"Understood.
Thank you." Lorenzo couldn't quite contain his happy grin,
and Alexis cracked a small smile in response.
"You're
welcome," she said. "Just keep in mind that I'm agreeing
to help you with your business issues during business hours. That's
it. The rest is me time, and I intend to spend as much of it as
possible in the very lovely bathtub and divine feather bed in my
hotel room. Alone. This is as close as I get to a vacation."
Lorenzo
laughed. "I thought you looked unusually well-rested this morning.
You're pleased with the hotel?"
"Yes,
quite. Thank you for arranging it. I had no idea I would find a
little pocket of European luxury in the middle of D.C."
"The St. Regis is a favorite of mine. I thought you'd like
it."
Alexis's
smile faded and she eyed him suspiciously. "Oh, don't tell
me. You just happen to have the room next to mine."
"Not
at all," he said, rather proud of his restraint. "I'm
at the Hay-Adams across the street. I won't deny that the thought
crossed my mind, but I thought you would prefer having some space."
"I
would. Thank you."
"I
told you, Alexis. No pressure. I'm not going to push."
*****
He
really wasn't trying to push. He certainly wasn't trying to start
anything when he pulled his chair up behind hers and put his hands
on her shoulders. It was just that she looked so tense, and he wanted
to help her relax.
They
had been in the conference room all morning and much of the afternoon,
working straight through a lunch of deli sandwiches brought in on
a tray. John Schaeffer came and went from time to time, but mostly
it was just the two of them, working side by side to lay the groundwork
for the negotiations that would begin the next day.
Lorenzo
did most of the talking, describing in detail his relationship with
the government and teaching Alexis things she never wanted to know
about the gritty business of weapons distribution. Alexis read and
read, skimming through endless pages of contracts, regulations and
memoranda until her eyes blurred and her head pounded and her stomach
ached. She wanted to pretend that Lorenzo's organization was just
another company selling sprockets, but the documents were littered
with reminders that his business was moving weapons into the hands
of people who kill.
Alexis
listened as Lorenzo explained why he believed he made the world
a better place than it would otherwise be. With or without him,
he argued, there would be guns and missiles and bombs moving around,
and he helped ensure that the better guys, if not exactly good guys,
had more; he provided the U.S. government with vital intelligence
about the activities of those who would do it harm; and as a man
with scruples and allegiances, he was vastly preferable to whatever
amoral lunatic might fill the vacuum he would leave behind. Alexis
withheld judgment. She was inclined to accept his claims, but she
wasn't sure whether it was enough. He still did the things he did.
From
time to time as they worked his hand brushed against hers, or he
stretched his legs and bumped her feet under the table, or she touched
his arm to get his attention, and each time there was that little
spark, that low rumble of thunder, and their eyes met a little too
long, but each time they moved past it without comment. Had there
been less work to do and had the consequences been less weighty,
perhaps there might have been time for a little flirtation, a personal
exchange or two to break the tension. Had they indulged for just
a moment in something more than passing contact, perhaps they might
have dissipated some of the charge building between them. As it
was, they did nothing but work, and the tension mounted.
When
Lorenzo came back from the men's room a little after three o'clock,
he found Alexis in a posture of weariness: she was sitting forward
in her seat with her elbows on the table, resting her forehead on
her open hands, focused on the small print of some obscure federal
regulation laid out on the table in front of her. She had removed
her suit jacket, and it now hung on the back of her chair. As he
took his seat next to her, Lorenzo gave her hunched shoulders a
quick squeeze. Gratitude for her help, sympathy for the hard work,
apology for the stress he had brought into her life - that was all
he was trying to convey, and any other feelings that ran through
him he intended to keep to himself.
Alexis
startled slightly at his touch, but she didn't look up. Her eyelids
fell closed, and she murmured her appreciation for the momentary
soothing of muscles she had forgotten to use for much too long.
When his hands fell away, she sat up straight, rolling her neck
and curling her shoulders to alleviate their painful tightness.
"More?"
Lorenzo asked, trying to keep his emotion out of his voice. Tired,
mussed, and stretching like a cat, she was entirely entrancing to
him.
She
turned and gave him a soft smile and nod. "Please." The
simple act of accepting Lorenzo's kindness without argument was
oddly intoxicating. Her burden felt lighter already.
Lorenzo
kept his surprise over her easy acquiescence to himself. He was
happy to give whatever she was willing to take from him, and he
was determined not to take more than she offered. He rolled his
chair into position behind her, rubbed his palms together to warm
them, and placed his hands over the knotted muscles around her neck.
Alexis settled back in her chair and took a slow, deep breath.
Somewhere
in the back of her mind, Alexis was aware that her usual inhibitions
had gone missing, but she wasn't particularly worried. She was well-accustomed
to the low current of electricity that hummed deep inside when she
was with Lorenzo; she thought she could ignore it, even savor it
quietly as he touched her. She was wrong. The heat of his hands
melted away her tension and more, turning her internal barriers
to liquid, and when his hands began to move over her, the current
inside her surged, throwing her completely off balance. He didn't
know it, but within a minute or two her body was entirely his.
Lorenzo
tried to focus on the science of what he was doing, summoning vague
memories of anatomical muscle maps. Working through the thin silk
of her blouse, his thumbs dug deep circles into the base of her
neck, into the aching notches between her shoulder blades, then
down the columns of muscle on either side of her spine. He tried
not to think about the delicacy of her frame, the warmth of her
silk-covered skin beneath his fingers, the soft floral scent that
still lingered on her, but all the sensations of her swam inside
his head, and he was quickly drunk on her. With each uneven breath,
it was more of a struggle to stay within the boundaries of propriety.
Alexis's
eyes fluttered closed under Lorenzo's diligent attentions. Her breathing
was slow and ragged, interrupted by occasional murmurs of pleasure
or groans of near-pain. His hands were strong and worked her muscles
hard, and she tried to relax, knowing that if she resisted, the
pressure would hurt. She couldn't really relax, though, not when
her stomach was fluttering and every nerve ending was buzzing. She
wondered if Lorenzo knew how he was affecting her, if he was trying
to do it, and she dismissed the possibility. He was giving her a
simple, therapeutic massage; anything else was just a fantasy generated
by her lust-addled brain, by her hormones on overdrive. It was all
proper enough.
It
was all proper enough, that is, until Lorenzo reached in front of
her to unbutton her blouse. She knew he was doing it, and she knew
a line was being crossed, but she couldn't move or speak, let alone
resist. She sat perfectly still, barely breathing, watching his
fingers slide down her chest, working one, two, then three buttons
open. He slipped his hand beneath the silk and pressed his open
palm against her bare skin, just below her collarbone, while his
other hand worked the muscles in the center of her back. No doubt
there was some sound therapeutic basis for what he was doing, but
all she could think about was the heat of his hand over her heart,
the way his bottom two fingers curved over the swell of her breast,
and how much she wanted him to move lower. When he lifted his hand
instead, exposing her skin to the cool air, her sigh of disappointment
wasn't lost on him. It was his first inkling that she was as far
gone as he was.
Lorenzo
shifted forward in his chair and carefully slid her glasses off
and set them down on the table. She closed her eyes again as he
traced lighter circles over her temples and then the apex of her
jaw. His fingers trailed down along her neck, tender now, and he
pushed back the collar of her blouse, baring her neck, her collarbone,
her shoulders to a gentler touch. She was soft and compliant in
his hands, and he felt like the most powerful man on earth.
His
hands felt wonderful as they moved over her now, but their path
was unpredictable, and Alexis couldn't quite relax for wondering
where they might go next. She still wasn't entirely sure he had
sexual intentions, but she certainly did, and she willed his hands
to be more daring. Perhaps she even encouraged him deliberately
with the soft sounds she made and the way she leaned her head back
against his shoulder and turned it slightly, brushing her cheek
against his neck, almost nuzzling him. As if watching his hands
work over her body and feeling his warmth all around her and hearing
his jagged breath weren't enough, now she had the smell of him,
the indescribably sweet, masculine scent of him, making her delirious.
It took a conscious effort for her to keep from licking the delicate
hollow of his neck.
As
Lorenzo made his way around her upper body, sometimes caressing,
sometimes massaging, he seemed to flirt endlessly with making a
move, and it drove her to the edge of madness. She had to stifle
a revealing moan when his hands traveled over her upper arms and
his fingertips traced the gentle curve of her breasts. She wasn't
even certain he was doing it intentionally; she still thought it
might all be in her head.
She
was about to make a move of desperation herself and beg him to get
serious when his hands drifted to her chest and slipped under the
loose silk of her blouse. She held her breath as his fingers traced
slow circles over her bare skin, burning their path into her, moving
steadily down. "Lorenzo
" It was a token objection;
she had nothing more to say. She certainly hadn't the capacity to
tell him to stop.
"Shhh
" His breath against her ear made her shiver, and she
leaned back into his warm presence.
His
hands crept slowly down, tracing their circles. On one pass his
fingertips brushed the inside edges of her bra, on the next a finger
slipped beneath the satin, then another and another, closer and
closer until his intentions were undeniable and finally he captured
her hard nipples between his fingertips. She cried out in relief
and release. "Lorenzo
yes
"
Whatever
boundaries they had tried to observe were obliterated. Lorenzo's
warm hands wrapped around her breasts, cupping them, squeezing them,
teasing her nipples, while his hot mouth nibbled on her ear, kissed
her neck, devoured her. She fell back into him, melting into him,
panting, as his hands played over her body. Everywhere he touched
her burned, and everywhere he didn't ached.
She
turned her head and sought out his mouth, claiming it when she found
it with a warm, wet, furious kiss with lots of tongue. He tasted
like him and he felt like him and she wanted him more than she'd
ever wanted anything. "Lorenzo," she moaned into his mouth
when she released him to catch her breath. She was lost, ready to
beg for what she needed if only she could summon the words.
Lorenzo
turned her chair around and pulled her forward to the edge of her
seat, his strong hands grasping her waist, feeling her heat through
the cool silk that still sheathed her. He fumbled for a moment with
the remaining buttons of her blouse, but it was going to take too
long so he slid her blouse up instead. He briefly admired the way
the delicate cream fabric rippled between his fingers, but then
the creamy flesh he unveiled demanded all his attention.
Lorenzo
dipped his head and showered kisses across her stomach, from low
in her belly to her navel and up, hungry and adoring and urgent,
and then he pushed her blouse up farther and found the clasp to
her bra, and his mouth laid claim to her breasts. She moaned as
he latched onto her nipple, sucking and biting and licking, pushing
her need for him higher than she'd ever thought possible. She held
his head, her fingers wrapped tight around his short hair. "Please
" she begged incoherently. She pulled him up to her
and kissed him hard, and together they slid to their knees on the
floor.
His
tongue invaded her without apology, probing her in a way that made
her melt further into him, and she fumbled with his pants, desperate
to free him to match his tongue's exploration more intimately. As
she wrestled his pants below his hips, they fell to the floor, him
on top of her, and he pushed up her skirt, pulled down her panties,
and prepared to plunge into her. She curled her ankles around his
legs and her hands around his neck and raised her hips in anticipation.
And
then he stopped.
She
dug her nails into his bare bottom, trying to pull him inside. "Now,
Lorenzo. Please."
He
shook his head, breathing hard, his eyes glazed over with desire
and disbelief. "No, no, this isn't right. We're on the floor
in a conference room."
"I
don't care. I'm going to die if I don't feel you inside me right
now. Take me now."
Something
buckled deep in his gut and he almost pushed into her. Somehow he
stopped himself. "Here, Alexis? Don't you want to do this right?"
"I
just want to do it. We can work on getting it right later."
"God,
I want you. But not here, Alexis."
"Yes,
here. Now."
He
closed his eyes and pressed his forehead to hers. "Do you know
how hard it is to say no to you?"
"Then
don't. This is getting to be a bad habit with you. You started this,
Lorenzo. Be a man and finish it." Her hand moved lower to provide
encouragement.
He
gasped at her intimate touch. "Ah
okay, okay
is it safe?"
"I
don't know
no
but
Don't you have something?"
He
shook his head no, and her shoulders collapsed and her struggle
stopped as she absorbed the impossibility of getting what she wanted.
She closed her eyes and let out a soft whimper of frustration.
Lorenzo
sighed heavily and kissed her closed eyelids. "I'm sorry, Alexis."
He drew his pants back up.
She
sobbed lightly, once, releasing some of the agony of stopping short.
"There are other things we could do," she offered weakly.
"True.
But are you really ready to do this?"
She
shrugged slightly, her eyes still tightly closed. "I don't
know," she whispered. She draped her arm across her face, burying
herself and her confusion and embarrassment in the crook of her
arm.
Lorenzo
brushed his lips lightly against hers and gently lifted her arm.
"Look at me," he implored. She opened her eyes hesitantly
and forced herself to meet his gaze, but she bit nervously on her
lower lip. "I'm very sorry, Alexis. I should never have started
this. As much as I want to make love to you, I don't want it to
be like this. I don't want it to be out of desperation. I want it
to be a choice. You told me this morning that you weren't ready
to make that choice, and I promised you I wouldn't push."
She
gave him a wan smile. "You didn't exactly push. If you did,
I welcomed it."
He
smiled back. "Good. I told you before that when we do this,
I want you to be happy about it. We waited this long, Alexis. Let's
do this right."
"What's
right, Lorenzo? There's something to be said for just giving in
to passion. Trying to get it right is a recipe for disappointment."
"It
doesn't have to be perfect, Alexis. But there could be music, candles,
a bed. Not a dirty tile floor and government-issue fluorescent lights
and the little red light of a surveillance camera."
Alexis's
eyes flipped up and scanned the ceiling nervously. "A surveillance
camera?"
"Gotcha."
Lorenzo smiled and kissed her nose and then wisely rolled off her.
With
a threatening glare and a shake of her head, Alexis sat up and began
to reassemble her clothing, growing increasingly agitated as her
mind cleared. Lorenzo sat back on his heels watching her, enjoying
the freedom to admire her body, until she gave him a dirty look.
"Do you mind?"
He
was genuinely taken aback. "What?"
"A
little privacy would be nice. Look someplace else."
"Okay
" Lorenzo agreed hesitantly, turning around. "I'm
sorry. I thought I was allowed to admire you."
"My
body is not yours. It's mine," she snapped. "You're very
good at taking my clothes off, but that doesn't give you the right
to watch me put them back on. We are not lovers, Lorenzo."
"Yet.
We will be soon."
"We'll
see."
"What
does that mean?"
"It
just means that I need to clear my head before I make any decisions.
You were right; I got carried away in the heat of the moment. That's
no way to live. I'm eternally grateful to you for stopping me from
making another mistake."
There
was no mistaking the bitterness in her tone. He risked a glance
over his shoulder and saw that she was fully dressed again, standing
with her back to him and her hands on her hips. He turned around.
"You're mad at me?"
Her
tone softened slightly. "I don't know what I am, Lorenzo. I'm
mad, I'm embarrassed, I'm confused."
He
approached her and touched her shoulder gently. "Don't be embarrassed,
Alexis. Be mad and confused, but don't be embarrassed."
She
leafed idly through a stack of papers on the table. "I don't
know how to make this choice, Lorenzo. I want to, but I'm scared.
The only way I know to do this is to let myself get carried away.
And I hate getting carried away; I hate feeling out of control.
This embarrasses me."
He
carefully wrapped his arms around her and turned her around. "I
know. When you're ready, it will be different."
She
buried her head against his chest. "What if after all this
build-up it turns out to be just okay?"
Lorenzo
laughed lightly and kissed the top of her head. "That's not
going to happen, Alexis. Trust me."
*****
"Hey,
you don't have any plans tonight, do you, Alexis?" John Schaeffer
asked as the three of them packed up their papers for the evening.
Alexis
looked surreptitiously over at Lorenzo, but he didn't look up. So
determined was he not to push that he had barely looked at her since
their misadventures earlier that afternoon. "Just a little
pampering and a good night's sleep. Why do you ask?"
"There's
this fundraiser dinner at the Hay-Adams tonight. It'll be a really
swanky affair. Orchestra, dancing, view of the White House. I've
taken a couple of tables with some of our old classmates. You should
come."
Alexis
grimaced slightly. "Oh, I don't know. I'm not sure I'm in the
mood for a reunion. And I really don't have anything to wear."
"Oh,
come on. There are plenty of boutiques right downstairs from your
hotel. I know everyone would really love to see you. And you should
come, too, Lorenzo."
Lorenzo
smiled politely. "Thank you, but I have some other matters
to attend to."
"How
about you, Alexis?"
"I
don't think so."
"You'll
change your mind when you hear who is chairing the thing. A certain
deputy attorney general from Harvard Law '84. On the short list
for next attorney general if the mood in the administration ever
moderates."
"Eric?"
"Yep.
You've got to come. How long has it been since you've seen him?"
"Uh,
twenty years."
"I
know he'd love to see you, Alexis."
"I'm
not so sure about that, John. I think I should pass."
"It'll
give you a chance to thank him."
"Thank
him?"
"He
didn't want me to mention it at the time, but Eric was the one who
pulled the strings to help out your brother-in-law that first time."
"Really?
I had no idea."
"Yeah.
You should come. I promise he'll be thrilled to see you, Alexis."
She
nodded reluctantly, relenting on Jax and Jerry's behalf. "Okay,
I'd love to go, John."
"Terrific.
Eliza and I will stop by your hotel and pick you up at eight."
Out
of the corner of her eye she saw Lorenzo clenching his jaw. She
turned to him. "Lorenzo? Are you sure I can't convince you
to come? You wouldn't really send me to a school reunion alone,
would you?"
Lorenzo
looked at her carefully, assessing her unspoken meaning. The genuine
invitation in her tone was unmistakable. "Well, then, of course."
He turned to John. "I would be happy to pick up Ms. Davis and
escort her this evening."
"Terrific.
I'll call now and make sure no one else gets those tickets."
John picked up the phone and dialed a number. "Eric. It's John
Schaeffer. Can I put a hold on two more seats to the fundraiser
tonight? An old friend is in town. Someone I think you'll really
get a kick out of seeing."
Alexis
shook her head at John, trying to get his attention, but he ignored
her. When he hung up the phone, she finally got her objection in.
"John, I really don't think Eric will appreciate the surprise."
"Oh,
I think it will do him some good. He could use some fireworks in
his life." John turned to Lorenzo. "Eric and Alexis were
co-editors-in-chief of the law journal. It was a fierce battle to
see who would get it, and the outgoing board in their perverse wisdom
decided the most just outcome would be to make them work together.
Fought like cats and dogs every day. Disagreed about everything.
Made the journal office a war zone until we told them they had to
keep it in the back office, and then at least the yelling and book
throwing was muffled. It was straight out of His Girl Friday. You
guys must have spent twenty hours a day together. But it was the
best volume the journal had put out in twenty years. Or since."
Alexis
bit her lip and smiled self-consciously. "Our vocal cords were
shot, but somehow we worked pretty well together."
Lorenzo
looked at her with interest and a forced smile. "Really? Don't
tell me. Just friends?"
She
turned away and closed up her briefcase. "Um, no." When
she turned back around, she headed quickly to the door. "I'll
see you both tonight, then?"
"With
bells on," John answered.
Lorenzo
nodded slightly. "I'll pick you up at eight."
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