Heart of Innocence
by Susanne

Chapter 5 – The Memorial Service

The day of Sonny’s memorial service had arrived. Kristina was spending the day at Coleman and Skye’s house, while Alexis went to the memorial service with Cameron, Jax and Sam. She didn’t know how to feel saying goodbye to the man she’d come to be so used to having near her. But she knew in order for her to become the best mother imaginable for Kristina she needed to say goodbye to the past, and embrace the future with Cameron and Kristina.

Sam: “Hey, you guys…” She replied, as Cameron and Alexis arrived in front of the chapel where Jax and Sam were waiting for them.

Alexis: “Hi, you guys doing OK?”

Jax: “I’m more concerned with you, and Kristina…How is she?”

Cameron: “Surprisingly well! She’s been very closed off lately, but suddenly today she couldn’t wait to see Coleman and Skye.”

Sam: “Kids – go figure!”

Alexis: “You’ll experience that very soon!” She exclaimed, as Jax caught eye of what was placed on Alexis’ ring finger.

Jax: “Anything you guys want to tell us?”

Alexis: “What do you mean?”

Cameron: “I think that your ‘not-so-subtle’ ex-husband wants to know what’s up with that ring…” He replied pointing to the ring he’d placed on her ring finger not that long ago.

Sam: “Are you guys engaged?”

Alexis: “No! We’ve just promised each other to be there for each other no matter what, and this ring symbolizes that!”

Jax: “That’s some promise ring!” He exclaimed hugging Alexis tightly thankful that his ex-wife had finally found someone worthy of her love.

Cameron: “We should probably go on in!” He exclaimed right before the four of them entered the chapel, and took a seat.

Ric: “Hey, you guys…” He replied, as he and Elizabeth sat down beside the foursome in the chapel.

Elizabeth: “How is Kristina doing? She’s OK?”

Alexis: “She’s doing better – thanks for asking!”

Elizabeth: “That’s no problem – Ric and I even think of her, as our daughter sometimes – but her mood she’s got from her daddy.”

Alexis: “Ain’t that the truth!” She exclaimed with a smile, as the Corinthos clan took a seat too, and the priest began to speak.

The Priest: “Friends, family…Something terrible has happened to us because Michael Corinthos Jr. has been taken from us in a cruel and cowardly way. Michael was a man, who believed in the concept of family even though he hadn’t had much of one while growing up. He was raised by his mother: Adela and his stepfather: Deke. He then went on to meet his wife Carly, and together with her he had two handsome sons: Michael and Morgan. Not to forget that his friendship and caring for Alexis made it possible for him to also get a daughter: Kristina Chloe. These children will bring on the legacy of Michael Corinthos – namely the legacy that it’s never too late to make your dreams come true, and that the love you’ve always been searching for can be achieved just by looking into your children’s eyes. If there are anyone here, who wishes to speak a few words of Michael – they are welcomed…” He replied stepping away allowing for anyone to come up to speak.

Courtney: “Sonny was the kind of brother I’d never known I’d always wanted, and I’ll never forget the lessons in life that he taught me – thank you Sonny – for showing me the right way to head.”

Jax: “A fan of Sonny’s I’ve never been but ever since he realized he had a little girl to look good for – his attitude somehow changed. Not saying that Michael and Morgan didn’t do that for him – but having Kristina near changed him in ways I never thought possible.”

Jason: “Sonny has been my employer, hero and friend through the bad times and the good times. I found the love of my life in Sonny’s sister: Courtney, and I found a family in Sonny’s family. I’ll never forget you, man!”

Carly: “The first time I saw Sonny I knew that we were destined to be. Sure we didn’t want to give into our hearts, but finally when we came face to face we realized what was meant to be: us.”

Alexis: “When I first met Sonny I thought that he was full of himself, and that he didn’t care much for the people around him. After having seen him with our daughter: Kristina my point of view has changed. I’d wish that he could be here to watch Krissy grow up, and somehow I know that he will!”

Ric: “Sonny and I hadn’t known each other for that long when he was taken from this life. I was actually seeking revenge because our mother: Adela had chosen to raise Sonny instead of me. My father told me a bunch of lies about my mother and my brother. Sonny and I were slowly building a friendship – too bad the building has to stop here…”

Elizabeth: “Sonny has been there for me through my times of sadness and grief. Back when Lucky was presumed dead in the fire Sonny was the person, who dared approach me, and hold me until the worst was over. When Lucky came back from the dead he was also there to lend an ear if I needed to get something off my shoulders. I’ve been his sister-in-law for some years now, and I’m really going to miss him…”

Sam: “I really haven’t known Sonny for as long as many of you here have. But from what I can gather he was a loving man with a great, big heart but who took too many chances at life. My mother always told me: ‘Samantha: use your time wisely in your life – you’ve only got one…’. I hope that you’ll find what you need wherever you are Sonny…”

The Priest: “Thank you all for your kind words – I hope that this day brought you a chance to say goodbye to the man everyone here has described as both a loving, and troubled man.”

The next day Alexis and Kristina had been by the florist’ to pick up some red roses to put on Sonny’s grave. Alexis knew that she had to be strong for her little girl – if no one else.

Kristina: “Mommy?” She asked, as she and Alexis were walking past the many graves to where Sonny had been laid to rest.

Alexis: “Yes, baby?”

Kristina: “If someone did something really bad, but for the right reasons could you forgive that person?”

Alexis: “Where is this coming from Krissy?” She asked wondering why her little girl would be asking a question like that.

Kristina: “Well, just because I heard you and daddy fight at my birthday party, and you looked like you’d made up when I blew out the candles?”
Alexis: “We did! Your father and I parted friendly, and that’s how I want to remember him: as a person you could both yell at and laugh with.”

Kristina: “I’ve never heard you laughing with daddy…?”

Alexis: “That’s because there hasn’t been much to laugh about lately, baby…We used to laugh a lot together.”

Kristina: “Is this it, mommy?” She asked pointing at the tombstone in front of them.

Alexis: “Yeah, it is! Come on!” She exclaimed, as she and Kristina got down on their knees, and placed the roses by the tombstone.

Kristina: “Would you?” She suddenly asked looking at her mother.

Alexis: “Would I what?” She asked not following Kristina’s question.

Kristina: “Forgive someone if they’d done a bad thing…?”

Alexis: “If this person was really important to me, and truly believed that what they did was for the better – then I suppose yes: I would forgive them!”

Kristina: “Cool!”

Alexis: “What’s cool about that?”

Kristina: “Nothing…I was just wondering since you and daddy have never allowed me to lie, and if you figured out that I did lie, you made me apologize constantly!”

Alexis: “Well, that’s because your daddy and I know what it’s like to be lied to, and what the consequences are. You hurt people when you lie baby, and once you’ve done or said something untrue – you can’t take it back!” She exclaimed, as daughter and mother sat quietly listening to the breeze in the air, as Faith Hill sang ‘You’re Still Here’.

‘You’re Still Here’, performed by Faith Hill

Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
And I knew it couldn’t be
But my heart believed
It seems like there’s something everyday

How could you be so far away?
When you’re still here
When I need you you’re not hard to find
You’re still here
I can see you in my baby’s eyes
And I laugh and cry
You’re still here

I had a dream last night
That you came to me on silver wings
And I flew away with you on a painted sky
And I woke up wondering what was real
Is it what you see and touch or what you feel?
‘Cause you’re still here

Oh, you’re everywhere we’ve ever been
You’re still here
I heard you in a strangers laugh
And I hung around to hear him laugh again
Just once again
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away

(Faith Hill – Cry)

Kristina: “You sad, mommy?” She asked seeing how Alexis was drying away a tear.

Alexis: “Yeah, mommy is a little sad.”

Kristina: “Because you miss daddy, right?”

Alexis: “Yeah, but you know what? Whenever I miss your daddy, I think of all the fun I had with him, and then I smile again.”

Kristina: “Like when daddy and me went to the ‘Yankees’ game, and he got me an autograph?”

Alexis: “Exactly! Come on, baby! We’ve got to get you in order for the ‘Nurses Ball’.”

Kristina: “And you have to look your best, too…”

Alexis: “And why is that?”

Kristina: “Just because…” She replied leaving Alexis puzzled, as they left Sonny’s grave.

chapter 6