Heart of Innocence
by Susanne

Chapter 4 – Grieving

When Alexis had told Kristina about Sonny’s ‘death’, Kristina had at first refused to believe it by locking herself in her room refusing to come out. Alexis had managed to get her out of her room saying that she wasn’t alone, and that they would help each other get through it. Kristina slept in the same bed as Cameron and Alexis afraid that the monsters would come and get her if she stayed in her own room. Things had begun to be a little better though – Kristina had started to hang out with Cameron again, and that made Alexis happy because her energy was running out – fast!
Kristina: “When do we say goodbye to daddy?”

Alexis: “Well, baby Carly has decided to have a memorial service where some people will say some things about daddy, and then say goodbye to him. But I was thinking that we could go to his grave later on, and say goodbye to him there.”

Kristina: “You don’t want to go to the memorial service?”

Alexis: “I’m going, but memorial services aren’t for kids Krissy! Auntie Skye will be home, and she can take care of you.”

Kristina: “What about Michael and Morgan?”

Alexis: “They’re staying home too…And when you’re with auntie Skye you can make daddy a nice card to go with the roses we’re going to put on his grave, OK?”

Kristina: “OK – mommy?”

Alexis: ”Yeah, baby?”

Kristina: “Do you think that daddy is with auntie Kristina, Grandma Adela, Grandpa Mikkos and Grandma Kristin?”

Alexis: “I think that daddy is with the angels, baby! And he’s looking down at you everyday to make sure that you’re protected and safe…”

Kristina: “I love you mommy!” She exclaimed putting her arms around Alexis’ neck, as Alexis got teary eyed replying

Alexis: “I love you too, baby – so, so much!” She exclaimed hugging her daughter back.

Kristina: “Is that uncle C.?” She asked, as the slamming of a car door could be heard.

Alexis: “Why don’t you go to the window, and see…?” She suggested, as Kristina scurried over to the window to look outside.

Kristina: “It IS uncle C.!” She exclaimed running to the door to greet Cameron.

Cameron: “How are all my girls doing?” He asked entering the house, as Kristina jumped into his embrace followed by Cameron lifting her up in his arms.

Kristina: “Hi, uncle C!”

Cameron: “Aren’t you supposed to be in bed by now?”

Kristina: “I can’t sleep - I have mental problems.”

Cameron: ”Oh, I see…What kind of mental problems?” He asked looking over at Alexis, who simply laughed out loud by the weird exchange of sentences that was going on between Cameron and Kristina.

Kristina: “Highly neurotic!”

Cameron: “Oh, I think you’ve been in my study.” He replied walking to the couch to sit down next to Alexis.

Alexis: “Hey…” She replied, kissing him softly on the lips.

Cameron: “Hi, yourself!”

Kristina: “Do I have to go to bed now?” She asked.

Alexis: “Yes you do! Because auntie Skye is coming here tomorrow morning at 8:00 o’clock to take you to her and Coleman’s place, while Cameron and I go to daddy’s memorial service.”

Kristina: “OK!”

Alexis: “I’ll be up to tuck you in, in a few minutes, OK baby?”

Kristina: “OK!” She exclaimed running upstairs to the bathroom.

Cameron: “Is she feeling better?”

Alexis: “Yeah, I explained to her why she was going to spend tomorrow with Skye, and I think she’s happy about her and me going to visit Sonny’s grave.”

Cameron: “I think that you’re right in excluding her from the memorial service – a memorial service is no place for her to be.”

Alexis: “Especially not when it’s her father that’s going to be put 6 feet under.”

Cameron: “I need to talk to you about something…”

Alexis: “What?” She asked turning to him with intrigued eyes.

Kristina: “MOMMY? I’M READY TO BE TUCKED IN NOW!” She yelled from upstairs interrupting Cameron’s speech.

Alexis: “Can you hold that thought for 30 minutes or so?”

Cameron: “Sure!” He exclaimed, as Alexis kissed him on the cheek before venturing upstairs to tuck in Kristina.

Alexis: “Hey, sweetie…God it’s cold up here, huh?” She asked going to the window to shut it close.

Kristina: “I don’t mind…Mommy?” She asked, as Alexis sat down on the side of the bed.

Alexis: “Yeah, what is it baby?”

Kristina: “Do you believe in angels?”

Alexis: “In angels? Sure I do! I believe that my good friend Chloe and auntie Kristina is looking out for all of us.”

Kristina: “Then why didn’t they look out for daddy?”

Alexis: “Well, because sometimes fate goes in, and makes things happen! It’s like when I met Cameron. I didn’t really want to meet another man, but God put Cameron in my life to guide me. And look at how much Cameron has done for us? He’s made us feel safe and warm, and he’s made us laugh…”

Kristina: “…And given me a big brother!”

Alexis: “That’s right: Zander – he’s given you a big brother in Zander.”

Kristina: “I’m pretty sleepy…I think I’ll go to sleep now mommy…”

Alexis: “You do that baby – goodnight…” She replied kissing Kristina on the forehead before walking to the light switch next to the door, where she switched off the lights before closing the door.

Kristina: “Daddy?” She asked out in the dark.

Sonny: “I’m right here Preciosa…” He replied turning on the lamp.

Kristina: “I don’t like lying to mommy, daddy! She’ll get really upset if she finds out I lied to her.”

Sonny: “No one will tell her, Preciosa. Now listen: daddy has to go and make some arrangements, OK? And when that’s all taken care of we’ll be together again, OK?”

Kristina: “But mommy is going to your memorial service in the morning…”

Sonny: “Don’t worry about that! You just worry about which kind of flavor ice cream you want when we’re all celebrating your daddy’s return, OK?”

Kristina: “OK! I love you daddy!”

Sonny: “I love you too, Preciosa! Sleep tight, and don’t let the bedbugs bite, all right?” He replied kissing Kristina on the top of her head.

Kristina: “You got it!” She exclaimed closing her eyes, as Sonny snuck out of the house via a secret door.

Meanwhile downstairs in the livingroom Alexis had resumed her seat in front of Cameron on the couch waiting for him to talk to her.

Alexis: “So…? What was it you needed to talk to me about?” She asked, as Cameron took her hands in his.

Cameron: “I think that we’ve reached a point in our lives where we’ve come to know each other – deeply!”

Alexis: “I agree…” She replied smiling.

Cameron: “I now feel that without you and Kristina I’d be…Well, lost! I want to ensure our future together with a promise.”

Alexis: “A promise?”

Cameron: “Yeah, a promise. Or more precisely a promise ring!” He exclaimed taking out a small, black, velvet box from his shirt pocket. He slowly opened the box, and revealed a beautifully cut diamond ring.

Alexis: “OH-MY-GOD…” She replied in syllables.

Cameron: “Listen, I know how you feel about the dreaded ‘M’ word, all right? But I wanted to give you something that would make you, maybe a little more comfortable with that word. I want to spend my life with you Alexis, and this ring symbolizes that promise – that we will stand in front of a priest – one day – in the future. Will you help me keep this promise by wearing this ring?” He asked looking into her teary eyes.

Alexis: “I don’t know what to say…Cameron, you’ve given Kristina and I an unforgettable gift by stepping in and taking care of us when no one else bothered to. You’ve made me see love in a different way, but I can’t without a doubt tell you that I’ll be ready to walk down the aisle with you in the near future. There’s also Kristina to consider, and I…”

Cameron: “…I’m not asking for your hand in marriage – I am just asking you to wear this ring, as a symbol of our friendship and love for each other.”

Alexis: “Then it would be my pleasure…” She replied smiling, as Cameron slid the ring onto Alexis’ ring finger before Alexis hugged him tightly thanking God for sending this good man her way.

Outside in the rain Sonny had watched the entire exchange of words, and couldn’t believe how fast Alexis was slipping away. Sure she hadn’t really been his to begin with because he’d been so terribly afraid of letting a woman like Alexis into his life, but still he didn’t want Cameron to have a part of Alexis that he’d never get to experience: the passionate and emotional Alexis Davis.

Sonny: “Well, at least I won’t be without my little girl for much longer, and maybe not without Alexis either. I don’t know why but somehow I need both of them in my life, and no one – not even Dr. Feel Good will keep that from happening!” He exclaimed before leaving the house that housed the two most important persons in Sonny’s life: Kristina and Alexis.

chapter 5