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Game
Day
by Cowgirl
chapter
31 - Settling the Score
Sonny
and Alexis arrived at the hotel close to eleven o'clock. Alexis
unlocked the room and was startled by what she saw inside. The candles,
which she had set out and paid a member of housekeeping handsomely
to come in and light the previous evening, were lit, only this time
she hadn't asked anyone to light them. Soft music played from the
stereo in the main salon of the room, and the balcony doors stood
open. Alexis could see the table out on the balcony was set with
two long, tapered candles and a covered silver-serving tray sitting
between them. An ice bucket sat in its perch beside the table with
a bottle of champagne chilling inside of it.
She
turned to Sonny and raised an eyebrow in question.
Sonny
smiled at her obvious surprise. "You think you're the only
one with elves?" he said quietly. He walked further into the
room, removing his jacket and tie, throwing them over the back of
a chair. Alexis kicked off her heels and walked out onto the balcony,
resting her hands on the railing. "It's a beautiful night."
Sonny
joined her and began to uncork the champagne. Alexis turned toward
the table and gestured to the serving tray. "Don't tell me
that after that meal you ordered more food."
Sonny
chuckled. "Why don't you lift it up and see what's under it?"
he said nonchalantly as he poured them each a glass of champagne.
Alexis
reached out and removed the cover from the tray revealing a stuffed
white elephant. She looked up at Sonny and laughed. "Are you
trying to tell me something?"
Sonny
nodded and handed her a glass, then reached down, fingering the
toy. "I think it's time we talk about this little guy. I mean
. . . he's been following us around for like . . . what . . . five
or six months now."
Alexis
breathed deep and let it out slowly. "Where ever did you find
a stuffed white elephant?"
"The
errand I ran the other day. I had to go to three toy stores around
New York before I found him." He sat down at the table and
motioned for Alexis to join him. "Now quit changing the subject."
Alexis
sat down and sipped her champagne. "I'm not . . . changing the
subject." She fiddled with the stem of her champagne flute.
"I . . . I just don't know quite where to begin."
Sonny
nodded and set his glass down on the table, folding his hands in
front of him. "Let's start by agreeing to be completely honest
with one another."
Alexis
breathed deep, her heart rate increasing rapidly. "Aren't we
always honest with one another?"
"Yeah
and I want to keep it that way," he responded. "I want
us to promise each other that once we begin this conversation that
we don't hold anything back. No matter what we think the other person
might feel."
Alexis
nodded.
Sonny
nodded as well. "Lex, I think we both know there's something
going on between us . . . I think we need to identify it so we can . . . "
He wagged his head from side to side trying to come up with the
right phrasing.
"Act
accordingly?" Alexis finished his thought.
"Yeah,
act accordingly." He shifted in his chair, spreading his hands
over the table. "I mean we've been sleeping together Alexis . . . and . . . and
I know that neither one of us takes sleeping with someone lightly."
He held his hands up. "So what does it mean?" He scratched
his chin. "I think we both realize that things lately have
become . . . intense between us and if we keep going the way we are
right now . . . I think someone is going to get hurt."
Alexis
bit her lip and sighed, not sure what to say.
Sonny
looked at her and continued. "We need to resolve this before
we go back to Port Charles. We need to know exactly what it is that's
going on here and if we should keep it up."
Alexis
nodded nervously and stood up, walking to the railing of the balcony,
staring out at the lights of New York for a few seconds while she
collected her thoughts. She turned around. "Let me start with . . . "
She took a deep breath. "Let me start with the reason I did
all this." She gestured with her hands. "This whole weekend . . . I
wanted, like I said, to do something nice for you . . . but . . . I also
needed to be with you . . . alone with you . . . without any distractions."
She moved around the small area of the balcony, clenching and unclenching
her hands. "I needed to see how you and I would be with one
another away from everything and everyone that we know . . . I mean
I know that we've been away together before, but that was different."
She stopped her pacing. "We weren't sleeping together all those
times before." She brought her hands up, struggling to say
the right words, but let out a large sigh instead. She squeezed
her eyes shut and bit down on her lip. "At some point in our
history together . . . after you got shot I think . . . I realized that
you weren't just my client. I cared for you as a person and somewhere
along the way you became my best friend." She cast a glance
in his direction, trying to gauge his reactions. Sonny nodded to
her and she continued. "I certainly wasn't looking for anything . . . more
between us . . . but when we were in Puerto Rico I think that if Zander
hadn't called to tell us about Carly's latest trauma . . . I think something
might have happened between us. It was certainly headed that way."
Sonny
cleared his throat. "I agree."
"I'm
glad it didn't," she said, tugging at the hem of her dress.
"I don't think it would have turned out very well at that time . . . it
wouldn't have been right."
Sonny
stood and moved to the railing leaning his back against it. "I
think you're right. We weren't at that point in our relationship."
"Yeah.
Well, that trip made me realize that my feelings for you ran a little
deeper than I thought." She looked up towards the sky and then
back to Sonny. "Am I making sense?"
Sonny
laughed softly. "So far."
"Good.
You and I have always been good for telling one another that we
mean a lot to one another . . . but we never elaborate." She shook
her head. "I don't know why that is . . . at least I didn't know
why that was until my big mouth sister said it for me." She
moved to where he was standing and stood next to him, her body turned
towards him slightly. She looked into his eyes. "Sonny, I think . . . "
She stopped and closed her eyes for a second, her breathing becoming
labored. "You somehow, someway, became the person who knows
me better than anyone else who's ever been in my life. You know
my mind . . . you know how I think and that I think too much. You know
my emotions . . . how I'm going to react to something . . . you know my
ramblings and you listen to them and tell me to breathe. You know
when I need your help and when to leave me alone." She stopped
and looked directly into his eyes. "You don't know how that
feels to know that someone like that is in my life. You accept me
for what I am . . . you get me, and you make me feel . . . like . . . you make
me feel like a woman. An intelligent, desirable woman, and that
means the world to me." She turned so she was facing the city
and placed both hands on the railing, gripping it as if it offered
her some sort of emotional support. She closed her eyes and spoke
quietly. "You know most everything there is to know about me."
She stopped as the weight of what she was trying to say crushed
down on her chest like a ton of bricks.
Sonny
sensed her apprehension and moved closer to her. "What is it
that I don't know Alexis?" he asked softly as one of his hands
captured hers.
Alexis
was breathing in heavy puffs now, her chest heaving, the tip of
her tongue darted out and met with her upper lip, the fear in her
eyes overwhelming. "You don't know . . . " she stammered.
Sonny
tilted her face up to his. "Breathe Alexis," he said gently.
She
gave him a tiny smile and took another breath. "I want you
to know my heart too Sonny."
Sonny
looked thoughtfully at her for a moment then moved forward and pulled
her into a hug. She buried her face in his chest and fought the
urge to run from the room. She could feel him let out a sigh against
her. He stepped back ever so slightly, holding her upper arms. "You
don't think I know your heart Lex?" He raised a finger and
ran it along her jaw line. "I know your heart Alexis. I know
that your heart has the capacity to help a young boy like Zander,
who everyone wanted to write off as a punk kid from the streets.
I know you gave him the courage to see himself as something else.
I know your heart is big enough to marry a man to save a friend's
company that meant a lot to her. I know that your heart is loving
enough to help my ex-wife time and time again, even though she does
nothing but torture your existence because you knew what it would
mean to me." He cupped her face with his palm. "And I
know your heart has the ability to care about a bitter, angry, sometimes
unbearable man who people think of as a criminal. I know your heart
is kind enough to care for a man like that and be the only one in
the world that makes him feel safe and make him feel like he matters."
Alexis
leaned her face into his hand, her eyes never breaking from his.
"I fell in love with that man."
Sonny
smiled tenderly and ran a finger over her lips. "And he fell
in love with you." He looked at her beautiful face and saw
a gamut of emotions cross over it. Her brows knitted together as
tears filled her eyes, her teeth claiming her bottom lip.
She
breathed deep and let it out in a staccato rhythm. "You love
me?" she said in complete amazement.
Sonny
closed his eyes. "Lex, I've been falling in love with you for
such a long time. How could you not see that?" He stroked her
face. "What did you think has been going on between us for
the last year?"
"I
thought . . . I mean, I knew that we flirted . . . I thought it
was just . . . I thought you were being nice to me." She
reached up and touched his face. "I was so afraid . . . "
He
put a finger to her lips. "You were afraid? I thought for sure
that a woman like you could never love a man like me. I was so afraid
that if I didn't tell you how I felt this weekend that I would never . . . never
know if you loved me too."
"I
do Sonny. I love you more than I can say."
Sonny
pulled her to him, his eyes searching her face. "Oh God Lex . . . I
can't believe . . . I love you too."
He
leaned his head down and brushed his lips against hers gently and
pulled back. Neither one of them said a word as they walked back
into their room, eyes never leaving one another, and into the bedroom.
Sonny took hold of Alexis' hand and led her until they were standing
in front of the bed. He moved around behind her placing his hands
on her shoulders, kissing first her neck, and then moving down her
back. "I've been dreaming about doing this all night,"
Sonny murmured as he moved his hands down her arms, grasping her
hands as he continued his journey down her back.
Alexis
craned her neck back and felt her hair brush against him. He straightened
himself up and brought his hand to the clip in her hair, unfastening
it, releasing her hair down around her shoulders. His hands snaked
down, his fingers hooking under the straps of her dress slowly pulling
them down her arms revealing the rest of the golden skin of her
back. She reached her arms behind her and caught Sonny's face in
her hands. "Sonny . . . " She moaned as she turned to him,
their eyes locking for just a second before their mouths connected
in the most passionate kiss either one of them had ever experienced.
They stopped and looked at one another the intensity in their eyes
unmistakable. Alexis reached up and ran a finger along Sonny's jaw
line. "This weekend has been so incredibly intense for me.
There were so many times this weekend when I almost couldn't stop
myself from telling you how I felt."
"Why
didn't you?"
"I
wanted it to be the right time . . . the perfect time."
Sonny
cupped her cheek. "It was perfect Lex." He kissed her
lips. "Just like you." He pulled her against him and hugged
her, a feeling swelling in his chest as they both clung to one another.
"Can you feel my heart, Alexis?" he asked softly.
"Yes,"
she answered without hesitation. "I feel it."
He
leaned his head next to her ear and whispered, "That's because
it's yours."
chapter
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